ink and graphite

firstly. news that just came in.

i got C5 woohoo...i must be the happiest person to get a C5. well, it's enuf for me not to take CLAO anymore...so happy :P

Go to hell chinese hahahaz

anyway, decided to sign up for Ink, NTU's version of Graphite. hopefully it'll give me exp for graphite. so here's the thing

dateline 25th march.

theme : angel

size: A3- > 80gsm

1 prob...." no violence or pornography..."

no prob with porn...but no voilence?

u cant be serious...wher'e the fun then...HMM*sulking*

damned, cant draw some guy cut into half by a katana...or pinned onto a wall by one...or have his head blown off...

sad.

anyway, J1 s trying to use the com for JAE....

they're swarming all over the library. :P

that's why i gtg now

./end

the black geisha.

first shamin wanetd to be a terrorist.

then he became a wizard

a jedi knight

then a bombay gangster.

a mafia

a beggar

a mugger

a sniper

now..... he's a BLACK GEISHA?!

he was going arnd with an umbrella saying:" im a black geisha"

OMFG! that is so f'ing weird.

flower-larc en ciel

soo kitsu ite ita gogo no hikari ni mada
boku wa nemutteru
omoi doori ni nara nai SHINARIO wa
tomadoi bakari dakedo
kyoo mo aenai kara BEDDO no naka me o tojite
tsugi no tsugi no asa made mo
kono yume no kimi ni mitore teru yo
itsu demo kimi no egao ni yurete
taiyoo no yoo ni tsuyoku saiteitai
mune ga itakute itakute koware soo dakara
kana wanu omoi nara semete karetai!
moo waraenai yo
yume no naka de sae mo onaji koto iundane
mado no mukoo
hontoo no kimi wa ima nani o shiterun daroo
tooi hi no
kinoo ni karappo no torikago o motte
aruiteta
boku wa kitto kimi o sagashite tan dane
azaya kana kaze ni sasowarete mo
muchuu de kimi o oikakete iru yo
sora wa ima ni mo ima ni mo
furi sosogu yoo na aosa de
miageta boku o tsutsunda
like a flower
~flowers bloom in sunlight and I live close to you~
ikutsu mo no tane o ano oka e ukabete
kirei na hana o shiki tsumete ageru
hayaku mitsukete mitsukete koko ni iru kara
okosareru no o matteru no ni
itsudemo kimi no egao ni yurete
taiyoo no yoo ni tsuyoku saiteitai
mune ga itakute itakute koware soo dakara
kanawanu omoi nara semete karetai!

ive seen who taht guy is today(as in the guy anshul was talking abt). seems like a nice guy. taht's gd. all units pull back. i think it's ok, cos i think she doesn't suspect a thing, was back to normal...sorta...hopefully, no one reveals it. i have abandoned operation. end of story.

listening to larc en ciel (or laruku as soem will call it) made me feel better.

so screwed man...sc fair...dunno wad to do. die man.

./urgh...(man down)

anyway....guess who's the lucky gal to get i set of free prok ribs from billy bombers

it's sinyi....cos i have no one to share with, then i remembered that i still owe her a treat...so yep.
not gonna ask her4 for this...most prob...unless i think it wont freak her out. or taht she doesn't mind...but taht's not likely. so screw it

the classic wax

the classic wax is back

no more fears.

ive come back from retirement.

rmb how xy said i used to be scary, how ive changed to becoming the scared?

not anymore

ive returned to myself.

the monster within me shall yet again be unleased...

anyway, so yah. more tsuff from anshul. she was seen carrying arnd a rose the whoel of val's day...and OBVLY not a jar of cookies. so it seemed pretty obv that there is already soemone else and i shld back out.

in fact i think i shldn't have tried at alll. it's all a mess now.

oh well, WTF, it's over.

all forces pull back!

T_T...it hurts inside, but i guess there's no choice

how i wanted to say these words.

"watashiwa, anata, ski desu"

so much for that...
but as XY once told me...
time heals all wounds...
wonder how long will this one take...


and yes. i guess at this pnt in time i shld say: yapali(as expected). atashi baka desu

to feel the fire-gackt
Cause when I look inside my heart and I tell the truth to me
Loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty
I need the fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
My outer self looks happy as can be
A perfect dream love as clear as all can see
But just like that,real,has hit me suddenly
My outer is a liar
Cause when I look inside my heart and I tell the truth to me
Loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty
I need the fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
My smiling face,with laughter on the side
You`d say no doubt I get passion every night
But if in our bed your arms don`t hold me tight
Means it leaves much to be desired
Cause when I look inside my heart and I tell the truth to me
Loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty
I need the fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
And if you look into my eyes and you told yourself the truth
You can`t make a body hot if you don`t light the fuse
I need your fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
It don`t take a rocket scientist to know
that if you don`t fan the flame then the fire will eventully go
Cause when I look inside my heart and I tell the truth to me
Loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty
I need your fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
Cause when I look inside my heart and I tell the truth to me
Loud and clear my soul cries out with total honesty
I need your fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
I need your fire,fire,fire to keep me warm
I got to feel the fire
To keep me warm,I got to feel it.. fire!

(in gacktease)

Coso en I luk insii my haah an a tell a toos to me
ladhd and cla my sal cra aah wist tota onesee
I nee da fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa too keep me wahm
I gah to fill za fiyaa!
My auta sal looks hapi as ca be
a parfet thream luh as clur as ah can see
bu jus la tha neer a skip me salodi
my auter is a lyuuh
Cos en I luk insii my haah an a tell a toos to me
ladhd and cla my sal cra aah wist tota onesee
I nee da fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa too keep me wahm
I gah to fill za fiyaa!
My smilin fays wis lafta on da sy
U say no da I gi fasho evvri ny
bot ifin ah bad you a do ho me dy
meen s leev mas to be deesiyuuh
Cos en I luk insii my haah an a tell a toos to me
ladhd and cla my sal cra aah wist tota onesee
I nee da fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa too keep me wahm
I gah to fill za fiyaa!
An if yuu look intoo my eyaaaaaaah an yuu tol yorsel da tuus
Yuu can mak a bodi haah if yuu don lite da fyoos
I need joh fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa to keep me wahm
I gah too feel za fiyaa
Rii don ta a woket sientis too no
zat if yuu flan da flem den da fiya wil e-ven-tu-ally go
Cos en I luk insii my haah an a tell a toos to me
ladhd and cla my sal cra aah wist tota onesee
I nee da fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa too keep me wahm
I gah to fill za fiyaa!
Cos en I luk insii my haah an a tell a toos to me
ladhd and cla my sal cra aah wist tota onesee
I nee da fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa too keep me wahm
I gah to fill za fiyaa!
I need joh fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa to keep me wahm
I gah too fill za fiyaa
I need joh fiyaa fiyaa fiyaa to keep me wahm
I gah too fill za fiyaa
Tu keep me wahm, i gah to feel it...fiyaaaaaa!!!!


to tell u the truth...i expected this to happpen. why?
becos soemhow my life will always be screwed up no matter wad happens. it's wax's first law of life. taht somehow my life will always get screwed up in a way or another.


the flowers on teh tree outside my classroom is blooming very prettily. u noe, this is often like the perfect setting like say...like wad romance and stuff...wad with spring has arrived and all...the cliche stuff. but me? i find nothing romantic in that and in fact i find that a sort of mockery of me. somehow i feeel that somewhere, life is making a joke out of me. life is hiding soemwhere, mocking at me. i mean it ALWAYS happens. anyway so teh latest update

there is now a her4
her3 was a mistake. i think i was crazy back then.
her2 was also a mistake. mistook frenship for crush...urgh.
her1...no comments...
her0...well...once i lost my dad's book and i was crying like mad cos i thot my dad's gonna kill *[me...
then she came over and offered me 2 things.
a smile and tissue.
that was why i liked her i guess...

that was sec1, and it was strange really, for i wondered who taht angel was.
oh wells. now we're just frens. and i have no more feelings for her. ]*-all stuff in between the brackets refer to her0.
reason for terminating persuit then. lasted 3 years. then she got a BF...who happened to be a very close fren of mine(who's also nicer and smarter) so naturally, i gave up.

anyway, teh navy advertisement.

" if ur life were a movie, would it be gd?"

well, i'd like mine in anime.

and it'll be funny. cos my life is a joke. i am a joke. u'll eitehr cry or laugh ur ass off watching it.
taht, or ur be crying of boredom

./end
"Falling deeply into an almost forgotten dream, I am now: Les miserables. I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall, Laughing softly... My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them in a sigh "-adapted from mizerable, by Gackt

meanwhile, i wonder why she told me she's unattached back then... >_<. eitehr anshul is wrong...or she could be lying to me...i dunno wad to think man...but if she's lying...all i can say is...why lie to me? if u din want to hurt me, then it would be better if u told me the truth...wouldn't hurt half as much...i noe if u lied, u did so so i would feel hurt but stilll....

alternatively if anshul is wrong(which i dun think so) then all these is nothing..lolz...but oh wellz im taking that he's correct.

all units disengage

abort

oh well so much for kawaii...

anshul just gave me some intel....she's attached, or anshul thinks she is. she as in u noe, kawaii... apparently she hangs out with this SC guy. right now, i dunno whether i shld believe him or not, but the wisest move is to believe him.

according to anshul the guy is tall skinny...etc...

looks like ive been outclassed....very greatly.

anyway, anshul figured out my identity by himself...which means....everyone might have

SHIT!

anyway, not that it matters anyway, i have to stop thinking abt this. chem SPA in 15 mins...and i dun want to get distracted.


just dun give me relapse while im having SPA. anyway, just now my eyes were alil watery. dipak suspected something, so he was looking at me like: are u ok?

so i said i was ok, just got stuff in my eye...(taht was partially true, but the truth hit me like pellets from a 12 gauge shotgun. so that contributed to it)

all i can do right now is wish the two of them happiness.

it sux and the feeling is bad, but by now, it is manageable.

in other news, pple went arnd touching me hair this morning...urgh...horrible.

and i got attacked by ades mosquitoes...twice...sux...hope they dun have dengue.

would hate it for that to happen.

anyway, so anshyul was liek: hey! taht's a very large bite!

im like: yeah, from an ades moquito.

"really? never seen one so big in my life"

"u have, now."

:P

./end

fight back the tears with courage!

hahaz

hamster likes mouse...but does mouse like hamster?

ok so my sis took a look at kawaii yesterday(her photo's in the year bk u c)
she said kawaii looked very mousy...and asked why i would like someone liddat...

then i remebered how she said i was very hamsterish(like a hamster)...

so essentially, that might explain why i like her so much...wad with all the rodent relation and all...

so ok

the hamster likes the mouse, but does the mouse like the hamster? hmmmm
that is probably a no....and does the mouse noe abt teh hamster? i also dunno

anyway, so yes, we still greet each other when we pass ....or sorta...today we saw each other twice...both times...i waved, she sorta had that expressionless face then made a smile as we got closer(as in displacement-wise, not like in relation wise).

but somehow i feel that the smile is different.

seemed like a forced smile to me...like there's soemthing abt me that troubling her...and then she gave one of her usual sweet smiles to everyone else...

problem.

as it turns out anshul got details from velu. There WAS a leakage , dammit. so i guess it's probably out in the open. and she's feeling very akward....not gd

anyway, yesterday, met this super obnoxious fat (probably half american) kid. man... he was shoving us arnd and being disrespectful and bragging a hell lot on the train...even tho he's sec1.
yes he's sec1. but he's taller than both me and hakkim. dammit. originaly i thot he was hakkim's fren. turns out he was just a stranger who noes neither of us! freaky shit!

anyway, i was glad i saw the last of him when he stepped off at dhoby gaut...or at least i hope taht's the last of him i see.

yaY! managed to get to billy bombers in time yesterday to use the coupons for a buy 1 B52 burger get 1 free, damned nice burgere and potato salad. dun mind going there again next time. after teh meal, we got a few more vouchers this time buy i rib set get another free. to be used by end of march. prob is. i need to find someone to share 2 sets. forget abt calling out HER. my guess is taht my probability is small...wwwwaaaayyyy small...and my sis has her own voucher(came in two u see). then went toJE to return her books, while she took my bag home.lol, she said my bag was so heavy she couldn't balance herself. i believe her cos she looked wobbly.

gackt-vanilla

kimi wa seijitsu na moralist
kirei na yubi de boku o nazoruboku wa junsui na terrorist
kimi no omou ga mama ni kakumei ga okiru

(You're an honest moralist
You trace me with your pretty finger
I'm a pure terrorist
Your thoughts are rising like a revolution)

koi ni shibarareta specialist
nagai tsume o taterareta bokuai o tashikametai egoist
kimi no oku made tadoritsukitai

(A specialist bound by romance
You used your long fingernails on me
An egoist who wants to confirm love
I want to struggle on until I'm inside of you)

kimi no kao ga toozakaruah
boku wa boku de nakunaru mae ni

(You keep yourself at a distance
ah Before I lose myself)

aishite mo ii kai?
yureru yoru niarugamama de ii yo motto
fukakukuruoshii kurai ni nareta kuchibiru ga
tokeau hodo niboku wa...kimi no...Vanilla

(Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking nightIt's good as it is More
DeeperAs those almost maddening lips
I've gotten used to melt togetherI am...Your...Vanilla)

"...nante kidorisugi" sonna cool na kimi wa plasticatsui menazashi ni wa ecologist sono moeru kuchizuke ga modokashii

("...you're too affected" You're cool like plastic With hot looks like an ecologist, those burning kisses are irritating)

yugandeiku kimi no kao gaah
boku ga boku de iraremasu you ni

(Your distorting face is
ah Please let me stay myself)

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru niarugamama de ii yo motto
hayakukurushii kurai ni nureta kuchibiru ga kotoba nante moukimi to boku
not Burning love

(Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking nightIt's good as it is More
FasterThe almost painful wet lips are there are no more wordsYou and I are
not Burning love)

ah ikutsu asa o mukaereba ah yoru wa owaru no darou kaah sora ni chiribamerareta ah shiroi hana ni kakomarete yuku

(ah If we welcome how many mornings ah Will the nights probably stop
ah Scattered in the sky ah White flowers surround us)

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru niarugamama de ii yo "I've seen a tail"kuyashii kurai ni kimi ni hamatteru no ni
A crew sees cring knees,I wanna need. Not betray!!

(Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking nightIt's good as it is "I've seen a tail"It's almost embarrassing I've fallen for you
A crew sees cring knees, I wanna need. Not betray!!)

aishite mo ii kai? yureru yoru niarugamama de ii yo motto kimi okuruoshii kurai ni nareta koshi tsuki ga tokeau hodo nikimi wa...boku no...bannin da

(Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking nightIt's good as it is More You areAs those almost maddening hips I've gotten used to melt togetherYou are...My...keeper)


this morning, came to schl at teh same time as always, and surprisingly SHE came at teh same time. in any case refer to above to understand wad happened. then in teh morning a schl cleaner came to tell me that mr sila was going to use the guitar stire as a barber shop! hey wad is this? first they dun put guitar in the yearbk now they use our rm for their nonsense! are we THAT insignificant?

anyway, kena caught for the hair and went for haircut. while waiting we were talking to teh taechers, one of them is Mr newbie who i think is damned cool cos he's teaching both physics and KI which is like a more advanced version of GP so he gave us an interesting lesson in philosphy and physics which blew us away. man taht was damned cool. also we get to skip GP...:P hahaa...anyway, so i opted for the super short haircut. some pple said it looks gd on me, other just laughed at it. haiz...

./end

oh well wad teh heck...

ok, 1st, i think she's avoiding me.....taht's why i have been feeling so miserable. and i think there was a leakage. anshul shldn't noe abt the HER situation, but he seems to noe, cos he suggested i could be waiting for something other tahn guitar...oh well wad teh heck....im done with this....

im sick of feeling miserable. im ok now. im happy as long as she's happy. that's all that matters.

im spposed to be depressed.

yet i feel relieved...in the sense taht i now noe that is hld disengage. strike 2.

sure it hurt like damned badly yesterday and today morning...it was like my heart was crumbling. i went arnd telling pple to do me a favour by killing me-a joke of cos.

now, im fine. seriously.

ratehr im in a gd mood. ive forgotten abt the situation with HER.

u see, my fmb tutor and guitar conductors were very quirky today... made me laugh until i had stitches...

./end

haiz...

ok im damned sian...cos i was waiting for yibo( she had a meeting). tehn she never turned up. i smsed her to call me when it's over.

guess wad? she left forgeting abt teh board! argh...she called to say she was already in toa payoh ....haiz....

also...

did a guitar poster...went arnd to ask for opinions. most gave gd comments. yosh!

anyway, a bit teh depressed now....becos of HER...dun ask...i dun wanna tell...or talk abt it...

ah yes..those blloody idiots....
they din put guitar in teh yearbook! wad is this? we shld go on a strike!

actually dun wanna do anything now. just depressed

just leave me alone.



the tears in my heart washed away the happy moments i had.
around and round i go,
searching for my happiness.
where is it i wonder?
why don't i have it?
questions that are so easy to ask,
but so difficult to answer.

let me drench in my own misery.
let me kill my heart.
there is no reason for it to live.
let me drown in my tears and soorrows.

for i am the monster.
cursed into eternal damnation.
to be alone.
created of misery,
i shall feel no love,
only pain.

./ end

watashiwa baka desu

hate myself

ahet myself for liking her, hate myself for feeling this way, hate myself fro who i am, hate myself for what i've done, hate myself for everything

just kill me.

anyway, seems liek she doesn't noe...yet. gd.

funny tho...i left a drawing...a similar one hanging arnd. she din notice..haha...

anyway, went arnd saying' watashiwa BAKA desu.

cos i felt miserable when i couldn't talk to her...altho she was just sitting behind me for fm lect and i wnet for dinner with her grp of frens...(1 of them invited me)

but i did nothing, but sit in a corner...sighing away.

my ability of stealth is coming back.

just scared darryl afetr coming in from the front door.

ha said: why do u always pop out of nowhere?

do i?

wad am i gordon freeman or the g man?

it's not like i teleport here and there

weird.

./end

OMG! we got owned by NJ!

ok so results out yesterday

we got 0w3d by NJ...big time

6 awards, nj got nominated for 5

they won 3

pj won 2 and rj won 1

urgh.

most of us were not convinced. we tried the hardest, while all other jcs were partying the camp away, we were spending any free time we had on research. haiz. maybe thats why i fell ill then. in any case, guess wad? turned out our team leader din like ms wong's handling of the project. it made her very stressed as ms wong constantly urged her to work faster, also she felt that ms wong was not giving enuf room to breath and think.

anyway, thx god it's over. can concentrate on guitar and studies le. way behind in both. haiz.

in the morning, i recieved a sms. i was like: haiz must be from vv or wentong...

but i was wrong.

it was from HER. :)

she said she was sorry for not replying the day b4, cos she was busy then" haha....no need"

so i insisted that i treat her to something, becos i felt bad abt troubling her, then half-jokingly, really, remarked that just treat it as if im asking her out. or bake her something nice in return.

"no need...no need...it wasn't any trouble really."

"ok, lor. dun say im cheapo never offered to treat u anything ah...hhaa, just kidding lar... just treat it that i owe u a favour. next time u need help, i'll help u as much as possible."

./end

*lovesick b@$+@Rd*

mizerable-gackt

Ki zukanai furi wo shite
Chiisana mado kara tooku wo mitsumeteta
Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koe
Kaze ni dakarete
Hitomi ni utsuru zawameki wa nannimo kikoenakute
Tadaima wa "amai toki no itazura da" to
Sora ni tsubuyaita
Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru
Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete
Tsumetai kaze wo abinagara
Kurikaesu yoru ni omoi wo egaiteta
Sotto kuchizusamu merodi wa
Toki ni kizamarete kieru
Nido to modorenai kanashimi wa wasurerarenakute
Ima mo yureru omoi ni somaru koto dekinai karada ga
Kowaresou de...
Hitorikiri no kanashimi wa doko ni yukeba kieru
"Wa ta shi ni a su wa a ru no..."
Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru
Les miserables
Fukaku fukaku ochite iku wasure kaketa yume no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru
Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete
Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete

-- (English translation) --

Pretending not to notice,
I gazed far outside a small window.
The voice of an angel fills the sky,
Embraced by the wind...
The noise reflected in your eyes can't hear
a thing.
Now it's just "a trick of sweet time"
I whispered to the sky
Around and round... In the time left behind, I am
now,
Les miserables!
I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall,
Laughing softly...
My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them in a sigh
Bathed in the cold wind,
Imagining these feelings night after night..
The melody I hum softly ,
Is etched in time and disappears.
I can't forget the sadness that will I can never go back.
Even now I can't dye myself with these swaying emotions, and my body
Is about to break...
Where can I go so that the sadness of being
alone will disappear?
"I h a v e t o m o r r o w......"
Around and round, In the time left behind, I am now:
Les miserables.
I loved you too much and you are now on the
other side of the wall,
Laughing softly
Les miserables
Falling deeply into an almost forgotten dream, I
am now:
Les miserables.
I loved you too much and you are now on the
other side of the wall,
Laughing softly...
My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them
in a sigh (x2)


i swear all this listening to x japan and gackt is not gd for me. i guess the way i feel abt such situations is largely formed by these songs.

haiz....depressed...

more talking to myself" nani-o-stearu"

first thing in morning, got to schl, saw her, then she was like: hi! wad's with the outfit?"

u c i was in blazers and all...

so i told her i have a competition.

she never said anything, just smiled and continued talking to her phone

anyway, later we figured that we needed an extension chord. so we were panicking. just when all hope was lost, SHE came along...with an extension chord! this must be some sort of miracle, so i went ahead and asked for it.

anyway, later i smsed her "thx alot for teh extension cable, u saved our team. tell ma when ur free, i'll treat u to something..." it was wad i called my "chance". how to be secret abt wanting to ask her on a date of sorts...ok....just ask her out lah...but in any case i never got any reply so i presume mission failure.

T_T

anyway, so the bus never came cos the driver got so pissed with the rjc security that he forgot abt the rest of us! argh! so 4 of us take cab, other 4 follow ms wong...the 4 of us with ms wong went to my house to get muti-pin adaptors. and speakers

anyway, very funny. ms lle was calling ms wong...but my brain was dead this morning, so i when ms wong's phone rang i was like: "hey, charis is calling"

it din occur to me that it was ms wong's phone , and that charis was ms lee. lolz

yaoyong had to withdraw $20 cos he paid his last 20 to buy us food. so he went to the ATM...and accidentally pressed: withdraw $1000 ...LOLZ

haiz...no money lioah...all spent to buy stuff for ntu-jc challenge. made 4 truips to and ffro. lolz...spposed to be 2 trips but on both trips, i wasa abt to get back when our team leader got me to get mor estuff so i ended up goinf in circles.

during presentation to judges, i was in charge of pictures...haha...then this judge got fed up with me trying to manoevre like mad to get good shots, so he said: hey, here, then offered his place...hahha:P

preparations for the finale...damned depressed an tired now. xy says i could be suffering from PMS...i thot i only had a female OS not physiology...but when i told her that my butt crack has been bleeding these days she went into hysterical laughter.

she really bought the pms theory after that. haiz. not good.

./end

fillout!

<7 things that scare me:1. losing HER2. NTU-JC challenge3. ms chan-my fmb tutor4. mr wan-my new conductor5. my mother6. rejected by HER 7. doing something bad to HER

7 things that I like:1. HER 2. anime3. 4. manga5. guitar6. games7. running

7 most important things in my room:1. my guitars 2. bags 3. books 4. bed 5. sketch of her6. HP7. nothing else

7 random facts about me:1. hates shock pink 2. loves dark colours 3. silly boy who's "lovesick" as sinyi says4. goes arnd talking to myself saying: nani-o-stearu 5. loves to hang out with HER 6. likes running7. likes jrock

7 things I plan to do before I die:1. earn enough money for an electric guitar, a good com, games and all...then for a family .2. make my own firearm!3. becoem proficient in guitar4. get steady with HER 5. if 4 works out...marry her....then start family6. get a phd maybe?7.work for DSTA

7 things that I can do:1. a bit of guitar2. physics3. kill someone without being affected emotionally...unless i hurt HER in the process either phychologically or physically4. knife techniqes5. draw6. bake cookies7. run simulations in my head

7 things I cannot do:1. paint2. chinese3. dance 4. get steady with her...getting to be her fren is alrady very difficult5. study in schl 6. not freak pple out 7. humanities

7 things I say the most:1. nani-o-stearu? 2. doyukoto 3. nan de -o-kole4. nazhe?5. ohayo!6. haiz7. i hate myself

7 celebrity crushes:none
just 1 crush.
J****

./end

urgh

ok....1stly, i hate my ntu-jc team leader.
she keeps naaging at us not to chat while doing our work, even tho it's not affecting our efficincy.
then she told me not to 'play with my phone' when just moments ago, she told me to sms yaoyong....dude! how do u expect me to sms yaoyong? by telekinesis?*irritated* then she disallowed us from going for cca...poor huang yu. fortunately for me, a- my teacher was in chrge of teh challenge last year, so he's very understanding. b- today's training got cancelled last min cos no one was coming. anyway. lucky me.

saw her at library...i was going to sit with her, when she got up and left cos of SFC stuff(at least i would like to think of it taht way.) of cos we said hi. then she said: hey sorry, have to go off, then smiled...

T_T

anyway, dipak saw it and was laughing his ass off.... >_<...not funny lor...

anyway, so i dedicated the song to J**** in teh end...Gackt's U+K..not like she understand the song liddat. haiz. but she was in the area when it was played. think she should have heard it.

anyway the councillor in charge was like: wad song is this?
" it's a jap song"
" any profanities?"
"NO....it's just a jap song..."

anyway, halfway thru playing it, a guy came over to ask the councillor for the song name
" wad song is this?"
"U+K"
"HUH?!"
"yah, U+K(passes the mp3 palyer over to show teh title)"
guy walks off.

wonder why he wants the song name.
mayeb he likes it.

that'll be nice

./end

mission accomplished

panic this morning. couldn't find my messegnger boy Velu. so i got Edwin. so now there are 8 pple who noe now. anyway. mission accomplished.

SHE was rather happy. can be seen
my identity is still a secret...for now. intend to reveal someday.

anyway, going to dedicate song tml....
most likely Gackt's U+K.

anyway talked to HER again...she doesn't noe it's me...i think...

"heya, i see u have a secret admirer(pnts to gift i gave her secretly), how do u feel?"
" why do u wanna noe?"(do u think she suspects?- the way she asked i would think she expected me to tell her that i was teh secret admirer)
" haha...just asking "
" ok lor"(smiles)
"haz...anyway, under normal circumstances i would give u a cookie, but Victor just took the last one"
" haha...u noe how to bake cookies?"(impressed tone)
" haha..yes...i'll bake for u next tiem if u want"

:)

anyway, so ironic huh?

anyway, owe sinyi a california roll....i lost a bet...

./end

all set and ready to go.

friday im in love- the cure

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love
Saturday, wait
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates
I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday, Wednesday heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love
Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Oh Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love
Saturday, wait
Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitates
Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
As sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love
I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love

Gackt- U+K

dakara...
nanimo iwanai de
kimi wa tada sukoshi ima wa obieteiru dake dakara
nanimo iwanai de
kimi wa tada sukoshi kanashimi no naka ni iru dake dakara
saigo no toki no naka de inori o sasageru
tsuki no mahou wa... shalle a le rilla
amai koe de sasayaku kara
mou ichido dake kanau nara
te o tsunaide kimi to waraitai
yume no naka de...
kioku no naka de kitto mata aeru ne...
kimi no egao ga torimodoseru nara
hohoenda kimi ga iru nara
kanashimi wa yasashisa ni kawaru yo
"tooi kioku no mama de..." negai o komete
tsuki no mahou wa... shalle a le rilla
kimi ga namida o wasureru nara
yasashisa ni furerareru nara
kimi no soba de nemuritai
tsuki no mahou ga kieru nara
sayonara ga mata otozureru kara
ima omoi ga tsutawaru nara
te o tsunai de kimi to odoritai
hikari no naka e kaeru beki basho e
mata dokokade kimi to aeru kara


-English Translation-
So...
Don't say anything
You're just a little bit frightened now so
Don't say anything
You're just a little bit in grief so
In the last act, offer your prayers
The magic of the moon is... shalle a le rilla
Because we whisper in sugary voices
If just one more wish comes true
I want to join hands with you and laugh
Inside of the dream...
Inside of the memory, we'll definitely meet again...
If you can regain your smile
If your laughing self returns
Sadness will turn into kindness
"As that far off memory was..." with all your desires
The magic of the moon is... shalle a le rilla
If you can forget your tears
If you can touch your kindness
I want to sleep near you
If the magic of the moon vanishes
Because good-byes are visited again
If we can follow our feelings right now
I want to join hands with you and dance
Inside of the light, the place we should return to,
Because I'll meet you again somewhere


sinyi says im lovesick...oh noes....

anyway, was watching the l337 translated version of starwars epi3 thrailer ...damned funny...
"...what they may consider to be....sploitz"
"...all Jedis are KOS"
"ROFL"
" juz d/l the hax i sent u and u will b the RoxXxor~!"
" the jedi are lame, they will not let u PL"
"...."
"u may hang arnd with us, but we stilll think u are noob"
" that's against the EULA"
go watch it...it's damned funny...it has gotten me ROFL...

http://www.mrbrown.com/blog/2006/01/_star_wars_dubb.html

LOLz

ok.
so now, we have 4 pple who noe the identity of HER. by tml, it'll be 5.

and 2 pple who noes how to decrypt my code. me and charles taht is. hahaz.

for teh rest of ..gd luck man...

./end(happy:P)

ok...this is definitely akward....

i am sitting just 3m away from HER and my heart is racing altho i dun act like it.(if there's a skill i have picked up over teh course of my life-this must be IT) i feel like laughing rite now.

meanwhile updates on yesterday.
-saw some snake being mashed to death. cetainly not a sight u see everyday. how do i noe it's the snake and not the molt?
simple, ants and flies were crawling all over it.
-also, the filming of the 'interviews'. man, i was sooo...worried.
told mr silas that i'll start at 2.45....waited for my team members who only arrived like....3.20....argh! man, i got one heck of a scolding from him. thx goodness the shoot was fast.
-lastest works by me!....my sis said they reek of hellsing....hm... i'll show it next time.

crap my heart is racing so fast, i cant think properly.

anyway, meeting later at 3.15...but not so important for me to go....can leave if i have an excuse. i dun...so i'll have to stay.

ah yes, now i rmb, got sent to library yesterday for not doing my binomial homework. haha....sorta slipped my mind....in any case...many agree that ms chan is *gasp* kind!

yes, she is. for she sent us to the library where there is air-con. how nice is that?

man im going crazy already....arhh...

relax...HER presence shld not be such a big deal..

ponned chinese lessons...again :P. that's why im here now. and in any case, my meeting with HER here is coincidental. NO! i am not a stalker thx u.

feels a lil better now that she has moved to another com to print something.

wad am i afraid of? being discovered...dun want to reveal it prematurely.

now wouldn't it be stupid if she came over, saw me typing this blog and found out abt my feelings?

./ end

trying to hold my breath to slow my heart.

btw, im uploading songs onto a gmail account

mdjukebox@gmail.com

the password is : mdjukebox88

pls dun try to do anything funny with it..pls...and anyway, i'll be a place solely to put soem of the music taht i have introduced. if u want, u can log in and download. the lyrics will coem with teh song

have fun

bernoulli's trial

Gackt-Maria

sabitsuita kyoukai no maria ni inori o sasage
hikari mo ubawarete furueru koto mo yurusarenai mama
hitomi o tojiru koto sae wasureteshimatta shounen wa
tekubi no tsumi no ato o kakushitsuketeiru

(At a church's rusted Maria, offer up a prayer
The trembling that even steals away the light will not be forgiven
Even if you close your eyes, the completely forgotten boy
Will continue concealing traces of his sin on his wrists)

kuchiteyuku hahaoya no nakigara ni tsubuyakitsuzuke
te ni shita hanataba mo kako no sugata o nakushiteshimatte
yasashii sono menazashi wa kegare no nai shoujo no mama
kawaranai jikan dake o mitsumeteiru

(Keep whispering to your mother's rotting corpse
And lose the bouquet you're holding and your past form
That gentle look is like that of an innocent girl
Only looking at the unchanging time)

"itami nado nai kara... mou nakanaide..."
"yasuragi ga hoshii nara... nozomi toori ni kanaeteageru kara..."
"kowaku wa nai kara... soba ni oide..."
"kegare nado nai mama... kimi no subete o ubatteageru kara..."
ima wa dare ni mo kimi dake wa sukuenai kara
saa me o tojite

("There is no pain... don't cry anymore..."
"If you want peace... I'll grant it as you've wished..."
"There is no fear... come close..."
"So that you can be untainted... I'll take it all away from you..."
Now there is no one else who can save you
There now, close your eyes)

"itami nado nai kara... mou nakanaide..."
"yasuragi ga hoshii nara... nozomi toori ni kanaeteageru kara..."
"kowaku wa nai kara... soba ni oide..."
"kegare nado nai mama... yasashiku nemuri ni tsukeba ii"

("There is no pain... don't cry anymore..."
"If you want peace... I'll grant it as you've wished..."
"There is no fear... come close..."
"So that you can be untainted... gently go to sleep here")

"kurushiku wa nai kara... mou nakanaide..."
"nigerare wa shinai kara... kimi no subete o yurushiteageru kara..."
"owari wa nai kara... soba ni oide..."
"kegare nado nai mama... kimi no subete o ubatteageru kara..."

("There is no anguish... don't cry anymore..."
"Don't run away... I'll forgive you for everything..."
"There is no end... come close..."
"So that you can be untainted... I'll take it all away from you...")

boku ga itsumademo kimi no koto wasurenai kara
saa me o tojite

(I'll never forget about you
There now, close your eyes)


interesting- a christian song...so says the page i copied this from...how highly interesting

anyway, let me tell u something...

i think of operation : baker as a bernoulli's trial.

wad's that u might ask- it's a test where there are only two possible outcomes(it's under stats if u are wondering). i asked sinyi for my probability or wad she thinks is teh probability.

she said 0.7....
i was like: 'wad? 0.7 %, so bad r?'
'no lah, 0.7 as in against 1....'
oh....
i.e 70%

but personally, i think it's more like 45%.

so i take average lah...for now...
hm...

let event X be teh guessed percentage of success.
P(X=70%) = 1/2
P(X=45%)=1/2

E(X)=35 + 22.5= 57.5%
var(X)= E(X^2)-[E(X)^2]...

ok...enuf of stats.

meanwhile, lucky for me.
bought containers... 1 large cookie jar..and two lunchboxes(came together). one will contain teh mua chees and teh vit c. the other...i have no idea wad to do abt it. prob is , my mother saw it. i have to say that im using it to contain lunch. lucky part?

my mum did not get any wiser abt operation: baker.
phew.

7 days left...haiz.

borrowed a blazer...using it this fri for presentation.

not going for lesssons. :P

but...i also wont get to see HER... :( most prob...

my circuits are shot out..unfortunately. haiz.

./end

this com SUX

ok, so im using a schl com...with a mouse taht's not working. great. so i have to use TAb which is excruciatingly slow...urgghh.

anyway, just heard from sinyi... pple form her class think we're together....my NTU-JC team is trying to suggest that....wad the crap....

1 person u can eliminate for identity for kawaii...THE NAME IS NOT SINYI THX U VERY MUCH!

back to encyption...(KTE 2,2)

93.tb

that's the name...figure it out. 1 clue it starts with J. go figure teh rest urself. (sidenote: surprisingly, her0, her3 and now HER starts with J. interesting huh?)

anyway. Sinyi is teh second person to noe the identity of HER. teh first being me. of cos if u are REAALLLYY interested, u shld ask me. i'll tell u...if i trust u. anyway, why Sinyi of all pple to tell?

becos i need soem opinions...and someone who wouldn't noe HER. so naturally, i choose Sinyi to tell.

meanwhile...im getting bad vibes...dun ask why...i just am...

like im gonna get shot down in flames.

oh well, i guess it cant be helped.

./end...with butterflies ion stomach-will they get dissolved by the HCl?
time will tell

another sian day

haiz...sian day....goodness noe why i went to schl at 6.50 in e morning....if i want i shld go earlier...or later...not at the time i went today...haiz...

boring day..till chem came along.

i tell u....those teachers are very sadistic. 2 practicals in 1hr 30mins.....they reallly hate us

as the operation date approaches, i get apprenhensive abt my appraoch...
my sis just said overkill...

so...?
hm....>_<

how?

./end- need help

Value Pack!

u noe NTUC has like value packs for milk and UIC products?

well, im coming up with my own value pack!

for val's day that is... it includes

3 roses
13 green tea muah chees
cookies
meiji vit c sweets( u see, she fell illl last thurs and fri-which was why i din see her....it's confirmed...i asked her...so was indeed ill. im hoping that the vit c helps improve immmunity and all...plus given the GP lesson's response as well as last year's response at the SAV gala dinner, id say that the meiji sweets are very popular with pple...once they try it that is....)
card--inside with sketch, a few straw stars(yes, peng guan taught me how to make them :P) and a message(like duh)

anyway.
stupid com virus spreading arnd world yesterday. singnet had to shut down i think. at least taht kept the infection away from us. however, it really sucked cos i wanted to blog this last night, but im only doing it this morning. my sis also wanted to use the intenet..but...oh well, wad a bummer.

really hate these pple who create viruses.
really, they have nothing better to do.

go jump off a building man, if u r really that bored. just dont go around being a public nuisance.
goodness, there's tons of things u can do.

meanwhile, have to reactivate windows. this feature was used in windows xp' to prevent piracy' it says. yeah. i think it's just them getting extremely paranoid abt sales. hmmm

anyway. just got this 34min song from XY.
yes.

34mins

it's called art of life, by x japan and here are the lyrics

Desert Rose
why do you live alone
if you are sad
I'll make you leave this life
are you white blue or bloody red
all I can see is drowning in cold grey sand
The winds of time
you knock me to the ground
I'm dying of thirst
I wanna run away
I dont know how to set me free to live
my mind cries out feeling pain
I've been roaming to find myself
how long have I been feeling endless hurt
falling down rain flows into my heart
in the pain I'm waiting for you
can't go back
no place to go back to
life is lost. Flowers fall
if its all dreams
now wake me up
If its all real
just kill me
I'm making the wall inside my heart
I don't wanna let my emotions get out
it scares me to look at the world
don't want to find myself lost in your eyes
I've tried to drown my past in grey
I never wanna feel more pain
run away from you without saying any words
what I dont wanna lose is love
Through my eyes time goes by like tears
my emotions losing the color of life
kill my heart
release all my pain
I'm shouting out loud
insanity takes hold over of me
Turning away from the wall
nothing I can see
the scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
he calls me from within
"All existance you see before you must be wiped out:
Dream, Reality, Memories
and yourself"
I begin to lose control of myself
my lust is so blind, destroys my mind
nobody can stop my turning to madness
no matter how you try to hold me in your heart
why do you wanna raise these walls
I dont know the meaning of hatred
my brain gets blown away hearing the words of lies
I only want to hold your love
Stab the dolls filled with hate
wash your self in their blood
drive to the raging current of time
swing your murderous weapon into the belly
"the earth"
shout and start creating confusion
shed your blood for pleasure
and what? For love?
what am I supossed to do?
I believe in the madness called "Now"
past and future prison my heart
time is Blind
but I wanna trace my love
on the walls of time over pain in my heart
Art of life
insane blade stabbing dreams
try to break the truth now
but I can't heal this broken heart in pain
cannot start to live, cannot end my life
keep on crying
[guitar solo]
Close my eyes
time breathes I can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart
dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life outside my walls
You can't DRAW A PICTURE of yesterday, so
you're painting your heart with your blood
you can't say "No"
only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck
you build a wall of mortality and take a breath
from between the bricks
you make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them
you're trying to commit suicide
you're satisfied with your prologue
now your painting your first chapter black
you are putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make an asylum for yourself
you're hitting a bell at the edge of the stage and
you are trying to kill me
I believe in the madness called "Now"
time goes flowing, breaking my heart
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I haven't found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroying the truth
tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
do I try to live, do I try to love
in my dream
[piano solo]
I'm breaking the wall inside my heart
I just wanna let my emotions get out
nobody can stop
I'm running to freedom
no matter how you try to hold me in your world
like a doll carried by the flow of time
I sacrificed the present moment for the future
I was inchains of memory half-blinded
losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams
Close my eyes
rose breathes I can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart
dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind
Dreams can make me mad
I can't leave my dream
I can't stop myself
don't know what I am
what lies are truth?
what truths are lies?
[guitar solo]
I believe in the madness called "Now"
time goes flowing breaking my heart
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I havent found what I'm looking for
Art of life
I try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroying the truth
tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
do I try to live, do I try to love
Art of life
an Eternal Bleeding Heart
you never wanna breath your last
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I'm feeling for
a rose is breathing love
in my life

./end

operation: darkstorm

Re:dreamer-sid
chiisa na poketto ni koukishin wo tsumete tabidachi no asa wo matezuni
konya dete yuku yo dare ni mo tsugenai igokochi ga yoku naru mae ni

machijuu ga miwataseru ano oka manzoku kai? boku wa chigau rashii sayonara
kyou ga kinou ni natte asu misukashiteru you na
boku no yari kata de kono rizumu de

mukai kaze no uchi ni josou tsuketa kekka sa kyuu ni fuita oi kaze nan ka ja nai
kuuseki darake no ressha wo orireba mita koto nai keshiki mieta

oshie ni wa teki wa sukunaku mote omoidasu boku ni wa niawanai

tsubomi hiraku koro tsutaetai koto darake sa hitotsu futatsu zenbu
yume wa yume no mama akirameru sono mae ni
yume wa yume ja nai to mune hare sou sa

betsubetsu no michi wo eranda hito yakusoku no basho wa mietemasu ka?

dou ka todoke koe yo soshite musubeba ii na tsuyoku tsuyoku negau
kyou ga kinou ni natte asu misukashiteru you na
boku no yari kata de kono rizumu de

tsubomi hiraku koro tsutaetai koto darake sa hitotsu futatsu zenbu
yume wa yume no mama akirameru sono mae ni
yume wa yume ja nai to mune hare sou sa

anyway, if u have watched the animatrix...u wld noe wad operation darkstorm was. in anycase, im using this in reference to the darkening of the guitar room. while doing thge darkening, a few j1s came in to chat. so i was chatting with them while darkening the room. at abt 3.45 i took a break...for a reason...hehe. cos i noe kawaii's class ends at 3.45...so i decided to take a break...and walk arnd. as expected. i met her, and offered to walk to her bus top with her....saying im justing talking a break...and wants to go for a walk. then at the stop, i styaed with her under the excuse that im just resting a while before i go back. :P...pretty lame excuse huh?

anyway...turns out the windows were of diff sizes...that's why i always get those dicreprencies in measurements. so it was sianz. but at the end of teh day i found myself out of paper...die...cont tml.

anyway, many pple koped my meiji vitc sweets...so sad...no more le...they liked it alot...i can see. cos most ask for seconds....in a packet of 6 by 3....not enuf to last...T_T

went to do pink tack yesterday....got blu tack from the wall..damed scary...i was pulling out the blu tacks to make trhem when a teacher came by and said: those blu tacks urs r?

'no...'
'wah...then ni hen you gong de xing le'

i wonder wad he'll say if he finds out that i plucked them to make pink tack....
' ni hen wu liao eh'
i guess...

anyway..because of my exp with kawaii yesterday, i became high. then u could sense my insanity and excitement last nite over msn....ok...plus maybe i was talking abt retiring from teaching pple weapons stuff...becos i dun wanna freak HER out...then xy was like: im expecting a wedding invitation tml.

'huh?'

'u sound like u were getting married'

'.... i have not even confessed to her, how do u expect me to get married?'

'this is when im spposed to say im kidding rite?'

'yes'

'well im not...cos im not like others'

'....'

anyway, she probably has no clue...i think....
xy thinks otherwise.
xy says SHE could be acting innocent.

i think not.
in any case...this morning i came way early becos i had morning run AND guiatr storeroom duties this morning.

my plan was to get here, run, then open store.

well...it became, see HER, run then open store.

yes she comes to school that early....

sigoi....

mr chan came in to borrow a tuner. turns out that subing already took all the tuners liao..to change batt...hahha mad scramble to look for one this morning...

PE....played capt ball. chixu was called: teh one from rugby after today...cos we carshed into each other....i fell. he din. wow.

then i took my weight again... now at 69.4. then my PE teacher went on to measure my fat percentage...19.9%...below obese level...

HA! take that "OVERFAT' woman(that's teh nutritionist who gave the talks...she always said-u r not overweight, u are over fat....hate her) that reminds me...i remember in aj, they said they'll take ur body fat percentage...'by passing a current thru u...and if we find that u have a higher body fat ratio, we'll pass more current into u...' lolz...them crazy, sadistic teachers...man those were the days....

gtg for guitar now....so i end my post for now.

./end

幻想の花

幻想の花-buck tick

幻想の花　歌っておくれ　この世界は美しいと
それはバカげた夢だと　君は楽しそうに笑う

幻想の花　歌っておくれ　この世界に咲き乱れて
それはふざけた夢だと　君は嬉しそうに笑う

甘い実を１つだけ　やがて真実が見える
花を・・・花を敷き詰めて

狂い咲き命を燃やす　揺れながら　あなたは夢見る
この世界は美しいと　この胸に　きっと咲いている

幻想の花　歌っておくれ　この世界は美しいと
それは素敵な夢だと　君は狂ったように笑う

甘い蜜飲み干せば　やがて苦しみに染まる
花を・・・花を敷き詰めて

狂い咲き命を燃やす　揺れながら　あなたは夢見る
この世界は美しいと　この胸に　きっと咲いている

あなたはとても綺麗な　花びらを千切る
真実に触れた指に　朝日が突き刺す

狂い咲き命を燃やす　揺れながら　あなたが咲いている
この世界は美しいと　歌いながら　きっと咲いている

狂い咲き命を燃やす　揺れながら　あなたが咲いている
この世界は美しいと　歌いながら　きっと咲いている

Gensou no Hana-buck tick

Gensou no hana utatte okure kono sekai wa utsukushii to
Sore wa BAKAgeta yume da to kimi wa tanoshisou ni warau

Gensou no hana utatte okure kono sekai ni sakimidarete
Sore wa fuzaketa yume da to kimi wa ureshisou ni warau

Amai mi wo hitotsu dake yagate shinjitsu ga mieru
Hana wo... hana wo shiki tsumete

Kurui zaki inochi wo moyasu yure nagara anata wa yume miru
Kono sekai wa utsukushii to kono mune ni kitto saiteiru

Anata wa totemo kirei na hanabira wo chigiru
Shinjitsu ni fureta yubi ni asahi ga tsukishirasu

Kurui zaki inochi wo moyasu yure nagara anata ga saiteiru
Kono sekai wa utsukushii to utai nagara kitto saiteiru

Kurui zaki inochi wo moyasu yure nagara anata ga saiteiru
Kono sekai wa utsukushii to utai nagara kitto saiteiru

cool song...listen to it man.

meanwhile damned happy today...
and if ur wondering it has something to do with kawaii.

was walking behind her when i was going to class...just happened that we were usin the same path. she was with her frens so i did not want to interupt. then she turns and shouts: 'anxian!'. i was looking to my left at that moment and was wondering hwo said taht...then i realised that it was HER...:) im going insane...

ok..damned tired today dun blog le. *bleah*

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