fill out again!

have u ever....
1.Smoked -nah! watse money...then kill urself slowly...pollute teh air some more...why shld i?
2.Drank alcohol.-yep...mixed 1 portion of beer with 3 portion of lycee syrup...damned nice
3.Cried whensomeone died.-never seen anyone die
4.Been drunk. -nope
5.Had sex.-nope
6.Been to a concert.more or less
7.Given a handjob/gotten ahandjob.-kole?
8.Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.-of cos not
9.Been verbally sexually harassed. -nope
10.Verballysexually harassed somebody.-nope
11.Felt someoneup and/or been felt up.-nope
12.Laughed so hardsomething came out of your nose.-yep
13.Cheated ona boyfriend/girlfriend before.-no lah
14.Been cheated onby a boyfriend/girlfriend. -no lah
15.Been to prom.-nope...
16.Cried at school. quite frequently in the past
17.Gotten lost in a WalMartor a department store-nah...my pathfinding skillz aren't taht bad
. 18.Went streaking.-kole?
19.Given a lap dance. -hell no!
20.Had someone of theopposite sex in your room.-my sis or my mother lah!
21.Had someone ofthe opposite sex sleep over. -no...
22.Slept over atsomeone of the opposite sex's house.-no
23.Kisseda stranger.-urgh no...
24.Hugged a stranger. -nah
25.Went scubadiving.-nope
26.Driven a car. -nope
27.Gotten an xray.-nope
28.Hitby a car.-soemtimes i wished i had..but no
29.Had a party.-had one...no...been to one..yes
30.Done drugs.-nah
31.Played strip poker.-dun even play poker lor..
32.Got paid to strip forsomeone.-like asif anyone will pay me to do taht...not thati'lll do it..
33.Ran away from home. -nope
34.Broken abone. -nah
35.Eaten sushi.-yep
36.Bought porn.-nope...i have better use of money...like save up for graphic card *droolz*
37.Watched porn.-nah...affront to my eyes...
38.Made porn. -wad the...
39.Had a crushon someone of the same sex.-urgh...NO!
40.Been in love.-if u consider crush love...then yes
41.Frenched kissed.-nope
42.Laughed so hard youcried.-yep
43.Cried yourself to sleep.-once
44.Laughedyourself to sleep.-once
45.Stabbed yourself-once...by accident
. 46.Shot agun.-of cos
47.Trash talked someone and then actedlike their best friend the next day. -all teh time
48.WatchedTV for 9 consecutive hours. -nah, but does anime count?that i think i did
49.Been online for 9consecutive hours.-yah...playing half-life 2...had to be online yah? due to steam and all
50.Watched an animal die.-insects counted...cos all i see of animals are those already dead
51.Watched a person die.-nope
52.Kissed and/ormessed around somewhere with at least 1person present. -nope
53.Pranked somebody. -i would think so...tho nothing seems to come to mind
54.Putsomebody in the hospital. -wilfred...with a hockey stick during pe lesson
55.Snuck intosomeone's room and/or your own room afterbeing out. -nope
56.Kissed somebody of the samesex.-i think i can say yes...on the back....the other time i got saboed
57.Dressed punk. -nope
58.Dressed goth.-nope
59.Dressed preppy.-wad's that?
60.Been to a motocrossrace.-nope
61.Avoided somebody. -yah...to avoid the situation from becoming akward
62.Been stalked.-nope...or at least i think...i mena who stalks me?
63.Stalked someone. -i hate to say this. technically yes...judging by the different way pple define stalking
64.Met a celebrity.-yes
65.Played an instrument.-like duh...im in guitar...
66.Ridden a horse.-a pony when i was in p2...in malaysia
67.Cut yourself.-countless times
68.Bungee jumped.-nope
69.Dingdong ditched somebody.-dingdong? wad does taht mean?
70.Been to a wild party.-nope
71.Got caught stealing something.- yah...got caught by my mother for "stealing" a book. i was very young back then and i was just playing with this book, and i carried it out without anyone knowing it. then when we got home, my motther realised that i was carrying a book which she never paid for...
72.Kicked aguy in the balls.-nope
73.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriendfrom a friend. -nah, i have ethics
74.Went out with your friend's crush.- define went out...if u mean 1-on-1...nope...but if u say in a grp...of cos lah...and at teh same time, gather data for my fren. plus i mean i have frens who have crushes on my other frens so it's perfectly normal
75.Got arrested.-only in my dream
76.Been pregnant.-nope but as i recall i was (surprisingly) a mother...or at least soem strange kid called me mummy on the phone...but anyway...it'll be ridiculous if i did get pregnant...im a guy for god's sake!
77.Babysat.-not really...and im not gd at it..but i guess i probably did
78.Been to another country.-yep
79.Started your house on fire.-no...
80.Had anencounter with a ghost.-in my dreams...where i tried to get rid of it by shootying at it and then tried to punch it...only to realise that alll these attacks just pass right thru which got me very irritated
81.Donated your hair tocancer patients.-is taht possible?
82.Been asked out by someonethat you never though you'd to be asked out by.-nope...no one asks me out
83.Cried over a member of the opposite sex.-yah,yah..i have...
84.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.-nope
85.Sat on your ass all day.-yep
86.Ate a whole cartonof ice cream all by yourself. -i think
87.Had a job.-not really
88.Gotten cut from a sports team.-never been in one...or even tried for one
89.Been calleda wh0re. -dude...im a guy...guys cant be whores...at teh most we can be pimps but not whores...but in any case...nope
90.Danced like a wh0re.- 1 dun dance
91.Beenmistaken for a celebrity.-yeah rite
92.Been in a caraccident.-not been in one but seen 1
93.Been told you have beautiful eyes-no...
.94.Been told you have beautiful hair. -no..
95.Raped somebody.-ok...1stly...i wont be here if i had..i'll be in a cell.2ndly... refer to qn 5...if u dun have sex...hoe do u rape? qn answered?
96.Danced in the rain.-like i said, i dun dance
97.Been rejected.-yah...of cos
98.Walked out of a restaurant withoutpaying.-nope
99.Punched someone/slapped someonein the face.-nope
100.Been raped.-nah...dun be silly


no. 666- gazette
Red grotesque jelly + bad system baby
Let's dance! let's dance! crash!
Bloody high toy story
Black grotesque night = bad friday night
Let's dance! let's dance! "..."
Downer's show time
Motherfucker [1]
[g] [m] [f]
Bloody birthday!
R-20 mad party
Bloody anniversary!
Endless mad red partyListen to the music[2]
"happy birthday to damian...".


i admit..this is one heck of a weird song

./edn

wah so ex ah?

yah...mr wan said the strings shld cost arnd $8..went to swee lee's and it cost $15 a piece...:(

so today i brought $150 abt $50 more than what i wanted to bring initially. just in case.

and it turned out pretty handy.

but oh wells, i have to go back tml to buy 1 more set, cos i din have enuf to buy all 11sets...:(


anyways, the shop upstairs has changed already. it no longer uses a x box, but a shiny new x box 360...woah....

anyway lunch with my sis this afternoon at billy bombers....

woah..the ribs were super big...i think it can serve 2 pple per plate...now we have 2 plates cos it's buy 1 get 1..oh noes...
funny part?
it's only $20 a plate....

but with uy 1 get 1 free...
it's $10 a plate...which is super cheap...

woah!

thank goodness i wasn't mad enuf to eat alone.


./end

blinded by love?

ok, first of all i came home from guiatr quite late on fri, and while blogging, xy meesaged me on msn to ask why i was so late taht day...was i not afraid to die?

u see she noes abt my mother so...hahaz...she thot my mother will kill me. i noe she will.

in any case she was sleeping so it was ok...

but xy was laughing her butt off cos i sounded lovesick...again...

and so xy started laughing at me for being so foolish..urgh:P

anyway, sat, lin feng went online and we talked abit.

and he gave me a photo with 5 gals in it and told me to identify which is teh one he likes...

unfortunately, i dun think any of them were chio.

for 1 thing i never recognised kawaii as chio...but tehse 5 hit a new low to me...

so i went from the one i find most aestically pleasing to the least....

and guess wad?

i onlgy guessed correct at no. 4...:P
so he said:" i can only say thta our tastes are very diff"

so i told him the truth...taht i found none of them chio.

then he was liek....ok... reallly different taste.

so i was like: either taht or im blinded by love

him: i think more liekly taht ur blinded by love
:P

oh wells

anyway was watching gundam seed one central just now.

and i couldbarely recognise kira and gang...i was like: hey...since when did they look like that?
then i realised that tehy looked plumber and probably still children.

anyway, today's episode is 9...teh one where flay's father goes up in smoke.

so my sister commented taht after which she got whiny?

"nah! she's always been a whiny B!+C#"

" then why does kira like her?"

"GOODNESS NOES! i think it's only becos she's supposed to be chio and kira is *HAM SUP LOH*(supposed to mean perverse in hokkien-but im not that gd with dialects). i mean com'on, kira even bedded her.

" but i thot the gal wanted it?i mean wouldn't u do teh same, wouldn't u feel tempted?"

"it's not entirely kira's fault. it's both their fault. the gal is wrong to come up with soemthing liddat and kira is wrong as he doesn't have the discipline to say no. so it's both etheri fault"

"u mean u blame the guy as well?"

"yah!"-i mean if he has teh rights to refuse. cuddling together to sleep is ok....but having them in nude is just SOOOO.......suggestive(i noe it was nude cos they showed a bit of it in one of tjose flashback things and i just wnet OMG!") gdness gracious that is like sooooo...weird.

./end

i dont believe it!

ok firstly i have been assigned to the niborii grp...as prime... :(

1st i dont really want to be in niborii

2nd- if im in i dun wannnna do prime...i mean i set stuck with the same instrument..haiz

and then we got teh niboriis down for trials so that pple can experiment with it....

well it was a disaster

after 2 hrs we lost 4 niboriis.

2 of 3 bass lost.
2 of 10 altos lost
both basses lost their 6th strings and the altos lost their 1st strings....argh!

then natt was evil. he tried to scare me...

natt:" hey anxian, so sorry, 1 more alto guitar lost it's string(holds a broken string)"

me:"NNNNNN.....OOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I DUN BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING!"

" hhaa just kiddding"

.....


anyway, staff meeting yesterday for teachers and they said that shamin is a "potential hazard"

lolz...makes him sound like some radioactive substance or poison.

lolz

./end

STRESS!

ok bad news...

yesterday the conductor went get us to play the chords individualy to find teh source of the timing problem. so he couldn't find anyone in guitar 3 who could do the chords with the correct pacing...

then he proceeded to me and told me to play....

then he said play again

so i played again

mr wan:" ur bass notes are wrong but ur pacing is impeccable!...ok guitar 3 this will be ur lead man, if ur lost zoom in onto this guy for ur timing"
me: 0_o
" just work on the bass strings and you'll be fine"

wah...stresss sia...out of the blue become a lead man...urgh

anyway, so today i was waiting in the library to make sure im there when dipak needs me. cos i just passed him the blue prints for teh mod shoe design.

anyway, so i saw HER and decided to join her in doing tuts.

anyway, so halfway thru i asked her whether she would like to eat billy bombers for lunch with me....or kinda...

ME:" oh yah...i have this voucher i have to use before the end of march...but alll my frens say they are too busy"
HER:" let me see"

hands voucher over

she looks at it and ponders

Her:"well i'll be busy these coming days so i cant"

ME: oh well i guess i'll keep looking for soemone...or i have to eat 2 sets by myself

her: chuckles" why dun u ask ur parents?"

me:" my father's in sri lanka and my mother's not free cos she's a childcare teacher"
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...
....

anyway, talking to her agian was nice :)

./end

dreams can make me mad

i think im going insane.

it's like ive been dreaming of HER very often in my sleep these days. it's wierd

but the weirdest dream i have as of recent history is that of xingrui singing "to feel the fire" by gackt...in class. i just went like WTF!

anyway, i shall reveal this secret dream that i had when i was in sec2...it involves her0. in the dream she was changing in the guys toilet. i din noe that so i went in to change then i saw he in teh toilet changing. abt to ask her why the hell she was in the guy's toilet when i realised one thing.

in the dream she was a guy!

i just went like: WTF!?

i tell u, alll the strange dreams i have cant be gd for me...

gackt-oasis
yukkuri to yo ga akeru made kimi o dakishimeteta
nanimokamo ushinau made kizukazu ni yasuragi ni oboreteta
"itaisa..."
izen no jibun nara kutsuu ni kao o yugamaseteta
ima nara kono itami ni sae yasashisa o oboeru
eien ni maboroshi ni dakareru yori
hitotoki de mo jiyuu o erabu
tsubasa o hiroge sora e habataite
yakareru mae ni taiyou ni nare
kaze yo fuke... sora e michibiite
kimi no subete o ubawareru mae ni
tooi kako ni ikitsuzukeru utsuroge na kimi ga iru
itsumademo ugokanai no nara kirisakarereba ii
sashinoberu kono ude o tsukameru nara hitorikiri demo
kimi wa mada waraeru
kousa o abite sora e maiagare
tsuyoku kagayaku taiyou ni nare
kaze ni nore... ryoute o hirogete
kimi no subete o kowasaru mae ni
furueru kimi
dare no tame ni ikiru no?
"mitsukeru tame..."
subete o shinjite
tsubasa o hiroge sora e habataite
yakareru mae ni taiyou ni nare
kaze yo fuke... sora e michibiite
kimi no subete o ubawareru mae ni
kousa o abite sora e maiagare
tsuyoku kagayaku taiyou ni nare
kaze ni nore... ryoute o hirogete
kimi no subete o te ni ireru tame ni



-English Translation-
Until the night slowly ended, I was embracing you
Until I lose everything, without noticing I was being drowned in silence
"It's painful... "
If it had been my former self, my face would have been distorted in agony (1)
If it's now, even this pain remembers kindness
More than eternally embracing an illusion
In a moment I'd choose freedom
Unfold your wings and take off into the sky
Before you're burned, become the sun
Blow, oh wind... It guides you into the sky
Before your whole self is taken away
Continuing to live in the far off past is your hollow self
If you're forever unmoved, you should be torn to pieces
If you can seize my outstretched arms, then even if you're alone
You can still smile
Bask in the golden sands and soar into the sky
Become the brilliantly shining sun
Ride the wind... Spread both of your hands
Before you're entirely broken down
You're shivering
Who do you live for?
"In order to discover..."
Believe in everything
Unfold your wings and take off into the sky
Before you're burned, become the sun
Blow, oh wind... It guides you into the sky
Before your whole self is taken away
Bask in the golden sands and soar into the sky
Become the brilliantly shining sun
Ride the wind... Spread both of your hands
In order to entirely find yourself


anyway...i feel dead today. dun ask why. i just feel restless and without energy. urgh.

also i have to come up with a design for the shoe idea....in 2 days..woot, im screwed.
haiz...damned tired. dun blog le.not today.

./end

zzzz...

mr matchmaker

i shall henceforth call mr chan (the guitar teacher in chagre)mr matchmaker...he did it again.

last time when we had our very first exco meeting, he was commenting on how me and teh other quarter master(subing) needs to be very gd frens and then he realised that we were from the same sec4 class he said we :" hen you yaun"( fated)

im like choi! i dun like subing lorz....i dunno why pple say she's chio. chio me? no lor!

then today i saw him at the aid station at SJS(the junior schl) and he was like: hey anxian, wad u doing here?

"1st aid"
" oh,i thot u were just some random pple pathoing-(refers to khairo, his student)"

me:" her R!?" Khairo: " him R?!"
urgh...

mr chan"yah lor- still got bring picnic box"(refers to red 1st aid kit)
me:"mr chan taht's a 1st aid kit..." -_-lll

mr chan turns to Khairo: " hey kahiro, u shld consider him, he's very hardworking, a very nice guy..."

OMG...now he's trying to sell me off...like get me a partner...:(

anyway, practical for physics today

me and wentong paired up, but bcos i had to rush off to 1st aid halfway during my practical, i was waiting by my edge of my table, while wnetong sat in her original corner.

tehn mr lim was like: eh... why are wentong and anxian sitting so far apart. it's like they repel one another...lolz...so we're like similar charged particles... 1 / 4 pi absolon naught X qQ/d squared lolz...

anyway, ms cahn had a prob with the no of zeros. eg. 0.01 was written as 0.001 and then she left out a zero like 0.01 was written as 0.1.

so she said she keeps putting either more or less zeros.

so i commented that that is more or less accurate lah.

plus she took out 1 zero, then added one more zero.

+1, -1

E(X) is still 0 wad...so very accurate.

anyway, decided.
i'll use cut and paste for my manga work to give it a 3d feel. they din say i cant do this so i guess it shld be ok. :)

also, i think one reason why i'd choose my luciferous angel design is bcos of IMPACT!
i expect teh others to do like some innocent looking gal holding bows and arrows.

im gonna do a more mordern and darker angel. they use guns and katanas.

they fight evil with evil, and not really taht pure and innocent.

yep..i even thot of a back story for this...but really i have to eat dinner le.

so i'lll talk more next tiem.

./end

of frogmen and commandos

ok, so last fri our PE teacehr separated us into frogmen and commandos.
frogmen are those who cant do SBJ. commandos for pull up.

turns out apart from me and joan, the rest belonged to either or both of teh categeory.
woah

for which our teacehr commented taht it would be difficult for our class to win the napfa award , by which they claculate the %age gold and silevr and use taht to judge the best class in Napfa. the winner gets to walk away with $30 per member.

anyway, got picked as leader for my section in 1st aid tml. but really they'll be under direct command from mr ho. so this title is pretty nonsensical.

also have 1st aid the day after that. so crappy.

fortunately bith not during lesson time, so i wont miss anymore lessons.

speaking of induction i rmb last year. it was called operation double I(i often mistake it for I^2 R which is teh formula for power disipated.)

and tehir objective was to instill fear. originally thot they were crazy but they later explained that FEAR was teh abreaviation fo stuff that i dun remember anymore.

consulted teh tutiors abt teh idea. he thinks taht of the ideas, teh modular shoe(or teh omni shoe as he calls it) is teh best bet. cool. however he cautions that the project could be difficult. problem. he brought along another teacher to help. and the other teacher gave us very gd insight, after all his in laws are in the shoe business which makes it very nice.

anyway, mr yeo, teh chem tutor supervising us shld be given soem credit fro giving us additional ideas, and supporting this idea.

and if thsi thing looks very skimpy(i think it is) it's becos, im sick of typing this teh 3rd time.

1st time- explorer error shuts it down
2nd time-page refreshs for no reason and wipes out alll that i have written
3rd time-sian le...so i write skimpily

./end

*beep* beep*get out of there, it's gonna blow!

ok, johnny got reaallyyy pisssed and blew up. ooopppss

anyway, like i said, im not going to try to jio HER from now on, but that doesn't mena i cannot like HER.

anyway, just on thurs, i went to the library to discuss abt the project for sc fair. after which i went on to do my proposal for my modular shoe idea, for which i realised that teh only com i can use was teh one where SHE was using, so i sat beside her. altho i din look it, with a st face and all, i was reallly very nervous inside. geez, i could feel the pressure in my carotid artery. so we just talked abt stuff......not alot, cos she was dealing with her SFC orientation proposal, so not a gd idea to disturb her.

so yah...parts of teh conversation

me:"oh, in case ur wondering, it's now legitimate. im no longer considered ponning."
"oh, hhaa, wad did u get"
"c5 *:P* "
"......"
...
....
....

anyway, so i also asked her abt her sc fair thing(note i did not join sc fair bcos of her...my choice to join was due to a lack of 1 person to make a new team, and since no one volunteered, i had to)
abt wad her project was.

i dunno wherether the sound of my heart pounding caused interference or whether she was mumbling...but i couldn't really hera her properly...soemthing abt doing some experiment...

so i told her abt the modular shoe and she went:" what's that?"

i noe u must be thinking the same

as teh name implies the shoe can be modded very easily.

becos u have shoes that serve different functions with different features, which i noe will cost a helll lot of money. so why not make one shoe, which u can just cahnge it's features, so u can use it to function as many different shoes? i mean say u want track shoes and soccer shoes. u buy the basic one, a track shoe, then u buy the soccer sole add on pack, and voila. 2 shoes in one.

this idea was given to me one day while lloking at life and i saw there were SO MANY shoes thatare made for different sports, and i went like: woah...that'll be expensive....not to mention bulky

then i remembered abt the xm8 carbine and sc 2000 riles which are so customisable....
change a barrel, add a scope, sniper rifle. add heavier barrel, sqad surpport weapon..and so on.

anyway after a while, she got doen with her stuff and said: hey, i going to teh other side to do my homework.

of cos,after i was doen with my proposal, i went up to her and said: hey, im going home liao, bye!
well, she has to stay back for her own sc fair meeting lah...so she's in teh library.

as for why i would go up to her to say gdbye, well, it's simple, cos she did that to me twice lah...like going to me just to say gdbye....i figured it's just courtesy to do teh same.

as fro why i din decide to wait for her?

simple. look at my exp with her2...i think if i did, i would freak her out and alll. make her think im some sort of stalker...so NOOO.....

anyway...interesting stuff from velu

SHE is 2 days younger than her2...


that i din expect.

oh well, nvm abt that.


anyway, was manning the store in teh morning on friday as always. looked at watch..already650 le...got there at 640...din see HER so i thot she came earlier...then it turned out she was a lil late that day and came at abt 7...and she was rushing like mad...prob 1 more reason why i liek her...cos she can be such a silly gal.

anyway, whe now have a cupboard at guitar room! woohoo!

and i more thing b4 i end. i had a dream last night...and yes it's abt her. i dreamt that i did so-so for soem matsh test, but she did super gd in that test. normally i would feel terrible, but soemhow, in that dream, i felt very happy...happy for her, which i noe is stranegthat's teh way things were...oh wells
./end