ouch...just got electrocuted just now...

ok...im not typing too well cos i just kena electrocuted during lunch time. was trying to fix teh fan to teh socket when i felt a jolt... ouch....cos i was touching the metal part when i connected. anyway. the jolt went from my right hand to my right foot...st. now my right limb coordination is a lil worse off then wad it used to be...and my right hand 's a lil numb....can stil feel a bit...but a lil numb nonethe less...ouch...

pins and needles.

meanwhile. i wonder...is that how getting tased feels like? i think it would.

im lucky to have survived i guess.... that jolt....i think might have been deadly?

i'll never noe for sure.

meanwhile normal functions are slowly but surely returning to normal.
thank goodness.

./end

reunion dinner

it's weird really. yesterday, at jurong pnt, i was on the escalator going to teh 2nd floor when i looked behind and saw a very familiar face in a hwa chong shirt....why it's none other than her1... that was strange. then this afternoon, while having meeting with sinyi and others, i noticed another person whom i've never talked to was online. it was kireii.talked to her a bit...but i guess altho she tries to be nice but i noe that she's a lil freaked out. so that covers her3. her0...i see her very often....and her2...i saw her on msn on wed....that's like ...seeing all my former crushes in like 1 week...wierd...that just left HER(aka kawaii) whom i saw early in the week, but not on thrus and fri. think she fell sick? i hope not...but my guess is she did. poor gal. hope she gets well soon. maybe she's not getting enuf vit c....might consider giving her soem of my meiji vit c pills...

anyway, yesterday..damned pissed. wanted to go back to css but they kept us locked in till 3.30 for the concert.... no half day on CNY....wad kinda CNY spirit is that?

today got a new yamaha guitar from my uncle...it was his..but he stopped playing already. anyway, it has already suffered severe damage, so it's sounds quite bad...plus it's a low quality one. very light...wood is not dense enuf...so it can be for fun...but hey! now we can have ensemble at home...how cool is that?

my shiny new TI-84+ :)....yayy...so cool...now if only if i knew how to operate it...

./end

*WOOT* guitar 5 solo!

tears-x japan

doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta toki ni toi kakete
nagasugita yuru ni tobi dachi wo yume mita
Ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoko wo dakishimete
* nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
LONELINESS, YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY, YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOODBYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUT DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE
TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi wo aoi-bara ni kaete
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
* repeat
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
if you could have told me everything
you would have found what love is
if you could have told me what was on your mind
I would have shown you the way
someday I'm gonna be older than you
I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
for now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live with love, with dreams
and forever with Tears

anyway, so while playing habenera noticed that i was the only guitar5. woot. then they were like: oh! anxian's solo this time we can see the true power of anxian. i was like -__-lll.

ok. a few things. this morning's meeting. team leader praised me for finding teh links and organising them in a coherent fashion. ...

din see kawaii today, wondering if she's ok after the run. dipak wasn't here too...maybe he collasped again?

gave the 34 fishes to qihan to arrange. he lined them on the window to look like aquarium..lolz


guitar- shix came to collect guitar for prac then he siad: wait i go toilet first. then val came and said teh same thing...lolz...so i was stuck in guitar rm. keen niap came and said he needed to go half an hr later. i said forget it...just pon lah...:P

./end haha a bit short today. gomen...will talk more next time. a li, tired sia

silent jealousy

Silent jealousy-x japan

I'M LOOKING FOR YOU
TRYING TO REACH YOUR ROSES
CARRIED AWAY BY THE TIME
seijaku no kyouki ni katame wo
tsubusaseta mama
YOU'VE GONE AWAY
FROM THE STAGE LEAVING NO WORDS
THERE'S JUST FAKE TEARS LEFT
isuwari no shinju de kazatta
bara no hanataba wo sagasu
I'M BLIND INSANE
IN THE RED OF SILENCE
NOW I'VE LOST YOUR LOVE
genkaku no ai ni kawareta
ayatsuri ningyo
GET ME ON MY FEET
GET ME BACK TO MYSELF
PRETEND YOU LOVE ME
yubisaki made shinku ni somatta
ore wo mitsumete
moe taekirenai kodoku no SERENADE
kyozou no umi ni nagashite
yume kara sameta chimamire no tenshi wo
mune ni daitemo
I CAN NOT STOP
SILENT JEALOUSY
DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
kanashimi ni midarete
modorenai ai wo kazaru
kurikaesu kodoku no naka ni
TELL ME TRUE doko ni yukeba
kurushimi wo aiseru
I STILL WANT YOU LOVE ai wo tomete
kurui saku kioku wo keshite
I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
when consciousness returned
everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you
but the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
stop my tears
stop my loving
kill my memories
YOU DYED MY HEART IN BLOOD
NO WAY TO KILL MY SADNESS
tachisaru mae ni koroshite
kyouki no ai ni dakareta hitomi wa
nani mo mienai
ima mo I MISS YOU
CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU
SILENT JEALOUSY yume ni ochite
dakishimeru kioku wo
STAY IN YESTERDAY toki wo tomete
kurikaesu kodoku wo keshite
TAKE ME BACK TO THE MEMORY, TO THE DREAM
SILENT JEALOUSY
DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
kanashimi ni midarete
KILL ME LOVE

haha...was a lil late for rd marchal today
was s'pposed to meet at 645
got there at 650
but we assembled at 655
so i was till early.

anyway, only 5 out of 10 rd marshals came...haha... so we were underhanded.

thot it wold start a bad day. saw sinyi and she told me there was ntu-jc meeting at 710. shit. i have 1st aid. so i smsed wentong.

day would start bad if there's ntu-jc challenge
or so i thot.
on the bus, i saw kawaii. i guessed she was as shocked to see me as i was to see her. greeted each other.she came on board e bus with a guy....thot it was a random stranger so i was going to sit beside her...then he sat down beside her...and started chatting...

wah...so paiseh...so i kept myself occupied by tracking time and counting how long more to being late. once in a while i couldn't help but look in her direction. strange feeling inside me. is this wad is known as jealousy? i dunno. my thots were, dun tell me that's her boyfren? if it is, then i better abort the mission.

left for the pnt without 1st aid kit. wondering why not. then while going to my pnt, mr lam came over in a harley davidson, stopped by the rd and gave us our aid kits.

stationed at a bus stop, with 2 teachers. 1 hr b4 the race starts. i take out my pencil and draw. drawing halfway, mr chan came. told me to collect amps next thurs. sure. back yo drawing...but lead broke...i thot i was out of lead so i was cursing. but later i opened the pen to see taht it was still operational :P back to drawing... teacher commented on my drawing 'ur an artist' they say.asked me fro anme and class. said my class teacher shld get me to decorate classroom with drawings. felt flatteredpple cae running past abt 820. the teachers began cheering for students and other teachers. very confusing. supported all my frens who passed by. not all of them could be seen. maybe they ponned. lots of frens came and passed. and so did kawaii..

got back, returned the 1st aid kit. went to sit with kawaii's class. went there. and after a while went to talk to kawaii....another 0.5 mins conversation. and i asked her whetehr he was her boyfren(in a teasing manner of cos...i still noe how to hide my tracks), she said no. my guess is really a no ba..

went home. noticed kawaii wasn't with her class, who were going for class outing...prob went home liao...qiong to bus stop. dun see her. too late i figure.cos i had to discuss abt ntu jc stuff...haiz. but i guess starting my day with a surprise appearance of kawaai made my day. haha. :P

./end

have i...changed?

was talking to XY yesterday...and i was saying how i got scared after she put her phoho as:' i'll kill u'. then she said that i've changed. no longer the old anxian. i asked how. she said anxian used to be scary...not the scared. haha...i guess these days i dun really want to scare off kawaii :P plus...now i have something for which i treasure, ie. i've got something to lose. back then i have nothing to lose...

jeez that is so much like samurai x

kenshim himura, hitokirri bathhosai and the rurouni...all the same guy...just that the situattion changed....

anyway, found blu-tack...so i changed it to black tack...
'wad?' velu was asking

black tack-like blu tack, except its black. then i formed it to spell black tack, b4 pasting it on the cutural centre table.

today i made yellow tack...and i have put it on the sides of the ava table. :P

haha...laughing off like a jackass..

anyway, weights down to 69.5...target is 68.8...so 700 gs more...maybe i shld have taken a poop this morning...wad do u think?

meanwhile...i have this resentment fro both the ntu jc project and teh team leader...haizz...i dunno why...but these days i dun reaslly feel motivated by the project...i also dunno why lah.

chris was asking me if i had a photo of kawaii...i dun...bcos it'll give the game away lah...plus i dun really need a photo wadsoever...i have her etched in my harddrive(that's my brain...)

l'arc en ciel-honey

zutto nagameteita
tooku osanai koro kara
ima mo iro aseta sono keshiki wa
masshiro na kabe ni kazatte aru

kawaita kaze o karamase
anata o tsureteku no sa
honey so sweet kagirinai yume o
kono ryoute ni tsukande

korogatte yuku michi de
sukoshi ikareta dake sa
fukai itami wa torenai kedo
sonna kanashii me o shinai de

kawaita kaze o karamase
anata o tsureteku no sa
honey so sweet shinjite hoshii
kono sekai ga uso demo

i want to fly, waitin' for sunrise

itsudemo itsudemo
amai amai egao ni tokete itai

unmei ga boku o tsukande
atari wa kasundeku kedo
fusaganai de kikoeru darou
ano basho ga yonderu
kawaita kaze o karamase
anata o tsureteku no sa
honey so sweet kagirinai yume o
kono ryoute ni tsukande

i want to fly, waitin' for sunrise
i want to fly, waitin' for sunrise

./end

back after 36hrs outside

TAF camp was fun...cept for nutrition talk...which was sian.

-had gym workout(where i saw kawaii going out of schl...but couldn't do anything...anyhow....was happy seeing her.)

dinner- quite nice....veg, fillet of fish, rice...but was damned full, din finish it, shamin din eat it, cos he's vegetarian.

night hike :)

watched 'supersize me...

night prowl around sas

sleep

morning breakfast

photo hunt- found out how much attention to detail i have...a photo of teh sign... i used the reflection on the sign to find it's location.

came back...and waited for dismissal.

went for ntu-jc meeting

5 hrs of meeting...


that's how i spent my last 24 hrs....

now, im spent...

./end

TAF camp...sian

ok...TAF camp today...or FAT camp as shamin would like to call it

speaking of which , this gal stepped on him yesterday, laughed and ran off...which got him pissed but he waqs scared....bcos her boyfren is a gangster..get a load of that . so he was walking arnd with his cricket bat...hhaha. anyway, i was like: aiyha...gangster only wad...for which he said: not terrorist tactics pls....haha...ok so i suggested stuff abt my weapons training the day b4 and alos taht i could provide flashbang stun greandes if he needed. hahah anyway, he was like very paranoid today. he was like: see taht gal obver there laughing away? that's her.

i pointed in that direction..
'that one?' i asked
at that moment and he ran away... afraid and angry
and said: DUN PNT UR FINGER!


hahah
mean while...saw kireii multiple times today...cos we were heading the same direction...akward it was...and oh...the finger pointing incident? kireii was in the background...

anyway...very happy today-talked to kawaii again...i said hi, and she gave one of her smiles...which just melted my heart away( wow...low latent heat of fusion and MP sia)...and we talked abt some stuff...:)

fmb lecture...was told to wake up peiran in the middle of lect...scared me...thot she figured out that i din brinmg my notes again.

physics prac...tut period cos teh teacher had to go 4 something later. revised superposition...got sian so i started drawing anime again...this time it's alll my characthers but in chibi form

was changing to PE attire just now to prepare for TAF camp...and at the same time i was thinking of kawaii...then outside the toilet i saw her filling up her bottle...

ESP? i duuno...

brainiac proved that ESP is rubbish...

so it's just coincidence...

./ end

weekend-x japan(blue blood)

I HEAR A KNOCK ON THE DOOR
hageshiku semaru
ushinai-kaketa ishiki no naka de
omae ga sasayaku
oitsumerareta kokoro tokasu
nibi iro no shouzou
kirikizamareta kioku wo utsushidasu
sakimidareta HATEFUL BLACK HEART
kokoro ni semaru
togisumasareta TRANSIENT FEELING
hitonami no naka
HISTERIC ni zawameku kaze ni
tomaranai namida wo
mune ni dakishime kodoku wo irodoru
* I'VE NOTHING TO LOSE
(LOVE ME TILL THE END)
EXCEPT YOUR HEART [x2]
tekubi wo nagareru chi wo omae no karada ni
karamitsukeru to isshun no uchi ni yomigaeru
kioku ni shikai wo
tozasare warainagara nigeteyuku omae no sugata wo
mitsumeru kizutsuita ore ga tatteru
WEEK END
# WEEK END, WEEK END
WEEK END, I'M AT MY WIT'S END
WEEK END
* repeat
NO WAY OUT
I HEAR A KNOCK ON THE DOOR
hageshiku semaru
ushinaikaketa ishiki no naka de
omae ga sasayaku
tsumetai yubisaki nobashi
kizuguchi ni kuchizuke
Akaku somatta kyouki wo dakishimeru
kagami wo mitsumenagara furueru karada ni
nagarehajimeta sukitooru chi wo aojiroi omae
no kokoroni
karamase genkaku ni kieteyuku saigo no namida wo
hiroi atsumete chi no umi ni madoromu
WEEK END WEEK END
WEEK END, I STILL LOVE YOU
WEEK END, BUT I CANNOT CARRY ON
tekubi wo nagareru chi wo omae no karada ni
karamitsukeru to isshun no uchi ni yomigaeru
kioku ni shikai wo
tozasare warainagara nigeteyuku omae no sugata wo
mitsumeru kizutsuita ore ga tatteru
WEEK END
# repeat [x6]
WEEK END

continue?.....9...8...7..6...*bang*

ok, that was surposed to be like time crisis...anyway. right now im in the library doing ....well nothing. just ended chinese lesson. and im thinking whether i shld like wait for HER or something? so called 'coincidental meeting' :P hahah...thinking...abt it... her lesson ends in abt 15mins tiem...so..hm...thinking ...aiyah..by the time i finish shld be ok le...yosh

meanwhile...other stuff that happened.

got $4.20 for reimbursement from buying 1st aid stuff for guitar from mr chan. :) then was told to read news aper for chinese lesson..wad a waste of time.
anyway, i wasn't reading teh newspapers...i was doing physics tut...then i went to do some drawing...alll lof taht while listening to teh tunes of malice mizer and l'arc en ciel on my trusty old mp3

in case u were wondering why din i pon chinese ...because i was already thinking of waiting...:P do i sound like a stalker?
mayeb.

TAF camp tml. sad...nvm...playing hides and seek-splinter cell style with shamim tml...hahha...no lah..joudan,joudan....
ok, many thx to chris(aka cheepo) for always replying me...and yes..i am alone here in SA...

and many thx to linfeng for sending me reila by Gazette...cool song...

reila-gazette

Reila...

Deatte kara doredake onaji kizu wo oi
Doredake sasae atta?
Kimi ga tsurai toki ni wa hoka no dare yori
Boku dake ni oshiete hoshikatta
Jijitsu ga me ni yakitsuku
Mugon de fudou no kimi wa nani wo omou
Riyuu nado iranai sa
Tada boku no kimi wo kaeshite kurereba

Nokosareta boku yori mu ni natta kimi wa
Dorehodo tsurai darou ka
Mada nanimo hajimattenai no ni
Mada kimi ni kono kotoba ietenai no ni doko e

Reila...

Kimi no na wo yonde mite mo
This voice does not reach you...
Reila...
Me wo akete?? uso da to waratte misete yo...

Ashita wa doko e yukou
Kimi ga nozomu nara doko e demo yuku yo

Kimi wa itsumo sou boku ga omou hodo
Dokoka e itte shimau
Mata boku wo nokoshi hitori de hashitte yukun da ne
Mou todokanai mou todokanai
Yatto kimi ni aeta no ni
Gaman shiteta mono ga subete afurete
Namida ni natte koboreta

Reila...
Ienakatta kono kotoba wo
Reila...
Ima koko de kimi ni utau yo
Reila...
Dare yori mo kimi wo ai shiteru
Reila...
Ai shiteiru. ai shiteiru...
Futari ga ita heya ima mo sono mama
Kagi mo kakezu ni
Itsudemo kimi ga kaette koreru you ni
Zutto matteru yo wakatteru kedo
Ima de mo kimi ga doa wo akeru sugata ga mierun da
Ashita wa kitto kaette kite kureru kana
SCAR-X JAPAN

kuchibiru kara
kobore ochiru
sabitatsu no kakera
shita ni nokoru
sono nigami ga
kizu wo kojiakeru

nagashikome
ima CELLULOID no yume wo
fusagaru kizuato ni yonmoji no TATTOO

zure hajimeta
RHYTHM no naka
midare odoru
MELODY
kakechigai no BUTTON de sae
kizukazu
kanade tsuzuketa
iro no nai hana ni
mamirete odore
yokotawaru uta ni KISS wo ataeyo

kaze ni tokete nagareru
omae no yokogao
kirisaite yaritai to kizuguchi wo hoshigaru
kimi no kowareta MELODY nido to majiwarazu
kietekure saken demo
asu mo mata
onaji kage wo kita mama de

nido to kataru koto mo nai
katachi ni inori wo
magiremonaku
itsukushimi wo
wakachi atta hibi wo Oh

mimi no oku de nakijakuru uta no
kurikaesu koe ga mune wo kakimushiru

Love Brilliant Scars
Pain Brilliant tomorrow
Sing Brilliant song for myself

itsuka futari nozonda ashita no keshiki wa
murasaki no kaori tatsu kofuku ni mamireta
ima wa shiroku hiraita asu wo machikanete
me wo hiraki fumidaseba
ushiro kamitsukamu omae no te ga...
kimi no kowareta MELODY nido to majiwarazu
yuganderu senritsu wa
ore no naka de tada
nari tsuzuketeru dake

Dead Poem's Still Alive
Dead Poem's Still Alive into me
Dead Poem's Still Screamin'
Dead poem's Still screamin' into me


./end

cold blooded killer

ok, today, i had more morbid stuff...

they were talking abt decorating the classroom. for cny. and i suggested hey...why not do it teh simple way? take 1 penknife. take me. cut my throat. the blood from the artery shld spurt very far. and it shld only take a few moments to use all my blood to paint the walls red. then velu said: this... u are damned morbid. why thank u.

anyway, cant say talked to HER ...but at least had a 0.5 min converstaion. made me a lil happier...tho not by much.

went to velu's class, saw this tupid bird which put its head into a pole...then velu was like: why is that bird headless...hhaha...then i got siabn and decided to help his class with their cny decoration...by making fish....

hahha...mine was teh angelfish varaint...'as angus would put it) and apparently becos they wanmt no.s...not quality...they did the oversimplified version...and they want it all standardised...so when eugene asked: aiyo who did this?
i said me
then apologized.
'gomen ne mina san'
dun think they understand...

meanwhile, stapler i borrowed from qihan is missing. so i had to kope 1 from s13...sigh..think i'll return 1 to them tml...

weapons training: was damned pissed last nite, so i decided to go for a little weapons training...first stop: penknife. i tried stabbing but the blad broke upon stabbing teh wooden drawer. so i tried slashing instead...ahh much better...
next i tried teh hardened lock. it's the one that;'s so hard, i cracked my floor at home by dropping that lock from waist level...scary shit...

physics lect...found out taht SHE dropped physics...but it's ok

then for GP lesson i kept thinking abt HER...cant really explain why...it will prob remain a mystery for a while.couldn't concentrate...haiz...

something's wrong with me and i dunno wad im supposed to do abt it.

neeed backup...

./to be continued

*nan de o...kole...*

thta's wad my fren dipak has been saying all thru the day today..after i taught him that(that's jap for:'wad teh heck is that?')

ok, tut day again...sianz...then there was ME...played jenga -truth of dare edition...and was picked. my dare was kisss omeone in the room. as always i feel a sens of dejavu, as i avoided doing anything to tha gals, wad with outrage of modesty and of cos, bcos i have set myself to jio kawaii...or attempt...wadever. so i kissed dipak...on the back...

speaking of which, dipak and i were just playing when we pretended to be gay...*key word-pretend*
dipak: i love u
me: i will die for u
actually...that 2 nd sentence had 2 meanings ...1 u hate the person so much, u will die to avaoid or be, u love the person so much, u will sacrifice ur life. in any case we were just playing...damned funny. later he was like: im leaving u for peiran
so i said: sure, but i want half of ur property...
then we were both laughing like jackasses:P

anyway, in other news, CNY decorations of teh class, and the teacher was like: hmm dun use GONG XI FA CHAI cos we are a christian schl...i was like: wad's wrong?
'dun want to encourage gambling'
qihan:'but it's properity for teh year, wad has it got to do with gambling...'

me: i noe...why not we say, 'i hope u will go bankrupt this year!'
then we were all laughing.

NTU-JC meeting...nothing much la...just that i got to guitar late. practice romeo plus juliet with j1s. no exco meeting today! so happy!

anyway, din see her(kawaii) today...*yapali*(as i expected)...but saw kireii instead...twice...but that's not an objective anymore....so im like >_<

must remeber to but stuff for cookies...might be baking her cookies for val day...ok...forgot my notation stuff..HER(which is now used to describe kawaii) kireii is her3...

there goes my her series...

xy prefers to use colours as notations...she hopes to make a rainbow....


./end...hm...sianz

super spreader

i swear i have become a jinx today.

this morning, whiel going to teh train station, i witnessed an accident. one that involves a car, a taxi, a bicycle and a bus...gee wad other lnad transports sis i miss out? anyway, fortunately no one was injured. then on the train, this old lady fell, and couldn't get up after that. i tell u, im a jinx.

so when i saw faizal this morning, i warned him. soemthing bad may happen to u. and the MRT was makin strange noises when braking, and faizal gave me that horrified expression of his. anshul then told us abt how this gal in india died in the escalator.apparently the stair fell and she got caught in the internal chain system, and was severed O_0! ok, so here's the thing, while going up teh escalator i pretended to step hard on his step....haha...

then while walking to schl, i said: hey anshul, lets go in front and saw off the lamp post...maybe we'llmake it fall on faizal(morbid huh?) anyway, when crossing the streets we said: watch out for cars...hahah

sianz all day long... break time, i saw mithil. man, do i miss taht son-of-a-b!+c#. anyway. he's crashing cos his parents want him to go to schl...he's supposed to be transfered to an indian schl...cos he failed to get promoted last year.

fmb tut. mdm chan was using the noisy OHP, and when she switched it on, the class was anticipating a knock...din quite come, until we instigated her to do it....

then she started knocking multiple times. hahah

anyway, pe, 2.4 run, but i ran 2km when it rained. end of pe lesson

thruout pe lesson i noticed taht kawaii was sitting with her frens at teh gallery. ok, just yibo. teh others were runing ...i dunno why. wanted to talk to her cos she had taht sian look on her face...but alas...butterflies in my stomach...crap. was talking on the phone for a while-parenst fetching her? or is she attached liao? hm...dunno...it's ok.

maybe i'll talk to her tml :) budden no lect...so not likely to see her :(...much less talk to her.

ordered my calculator...a shiny new TI84+ yosh! (comes with 1 year warranty)and i now have 2 spapers...both applications have come thru!

dipak came back...it was great having him back. but i was a lil worried cos he insisted on running altho we advised him not to...thx gdness he stopped after a while.

i warned qihan abt me being a jinx, and he watching out for lightning, cos he's teh tallest in class... tehn he said he'll grab me, and since im very sweaty, he'll avoid most of teh damage as most of teh current will pass thru me...hahaall in teh name of joke ofcos.

saw mr chan going to teh guitar room and joined him. teh room was*gasp* DRY! no leakage! so me and mr chan wondered why was teh room wet. i noticed condensation on teh glass and mr chan wondered whether teh water was caused by condensation, for which i replied: sir, it'll be very amazing if all that water was caused by condensation.

mr wong was looking for me this morning...asking whether i was interested in teh science fair, tehn he rememebered i ahve NTU-JC challenge. so he said: ok, ur untouchable, i'll just have to find someone else. lolz

talked to teh mulim stall ...it's $2.50 per packet.

bought new 1st aid supplies for the ensemble. costs $4.20. 4 bottles of cleaning sol, 4 sterile gauze.


./end- i am not alone, yet i feel lonely. i am looking for company, but everywhere i see, i see strangers who look like frens i used to noe. no one talks to me. i am invisible, and insignificant.
i am teh 1st insignificant figure

burnt out

-just noticed the cc near my schl says no ball game-in the net ball court....WTF?

-saw kireii ouside schl while going home. that moment i hoped my stealth capabilities still worked. she was sqatting(wad for? i dunno) this other guy, a fren i presume, was like taking a board and pretending to whack her. at that moment i visualised taking a pistol and aiming at him...jeez...then i was like: ok, wad the HELL was that?! scary things happen when i become very tired-yes, i was very tired...i couldn't think st duringchem lesson. 1 reason could be becos i din eat my breakfasdt and lunch. i was too busy during my break checking up on the first aid kit in guitar store. speaking of which there was this packet which was totally in malay so i din noe where i wanted to put it(i arranged the items based on their prooperties-eg. sterile items in a place.) so i went to teh cafeteria, then looked for any malays and asked her: wad is this?

well it turned out t be insect repellent. the sterile swabs have expired...so i have to go replace them.

felt like a ghoul all day long...so damned tired.

oh yeah, saw my frens viknash and samuel on the train this morning. was nice seeing them.

oh well, just in case u dun remember, i have decided to abort teh kireii front, in case u were wondering. my evaluation befroe said definitely not worth it, therefore, im not gonna try anything funny.

./end

i have made a final decision.

ok. i have evalauted the scenario, and i decided to settle for kawaii....becos after a while i figured that the situation with kireei was hopeless... and plus i realised that the feelings have already gone. so im redirecting .

ok, crap, i kena TAF camop...crap... and i have to report to mac at 645 for 1st aid duty for x-country...madness..i have to take the 1st bus there..horrid.

guitar- j1 orientation, and i was anti-social....meeting till9 ....haiz...tired now.

also damend pissed, cos after i got back...hiaz have to wash dishes...

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endless rain

ok, thses few days have been rainy and to tell u frankly, always make me worry abt the other two. ok, and for me? i end up in the rain in spite of teh fact the i carry an umbrella. why? i never get to use my own umbrella! everytime i'll like lend it to someone else. case in pnt. two j1 gals asked whether they can borrow my umbrella, ofcos, i din turn them down, not becos im like 'taking this oppotunity' kinda thing like hello? i dun arnd trying to flirt with gals liddat lor. it's just taht a: be a gentleman, make sure the gals dun get wet. and b: aiya, they're ur juniors, be nice to them.

joel has a different idea.
let teh gals get wet so that he can see thru their shirts.

i swear that guy's a pervert.


in other news- my chem teacher got lost yesterday....damned funny. first we saw him coming towards our class on the same floor, so we got ready for lessons. we lost sight of him as he walked inti the staircase blk. we waited and waited...then found it strange.

nobody takes 5mins to walk 5ms.
dipak said maybe he got kidnapped. i said let's try and see whethe he's even on the saem floor

went there and lo and behold.

'HE'S NOT EVEN ON THE SAME FRIGGIN FLOOR!'

10mins later he came into the classroom. he went downstairs just short of our classroom....
-__-lll

'sorry, my gps went haywire today.'
(gps:gobal positioning system, a satellite based navigational tool that works based on teh pricipal of triangulating, accurate up to few (1-2)metres.

speaking of which, dipak has fainted-again. really worried abt him, wonder if he'll be alright. i remember my promise to him yesterday.

dipak:' i want u to get a gold for venn'
me:'but im not really that gd, choonhua is better.'
dipak:' choonhua is a short distance runner.'
me:'ok, i'll try my best, but no guarantees. i'll start training then.'

not sure if i can keep that promise. u see, turns out i have 1st aid duties that day. all 1st aid reps. so i most prob wont be running. so im wondering who can run for venn? well, i guess there's prob tonnes of better runners out there(or at least i hope) cos wont wanna disappoint dipak who's teh house captain, as well as the 14th position last year.

and it seems that i keep getting selected as teh prime candidate for soem stuff. like the design for teh abstract. tues night i was informed of this assignment. only got the abstract the next day at home(and i reached home at 2045) so i only had abt 1hr to do it. and why was i picked? wentong figured i had some artistic sense becos i was drawing my anime style characters during the camp, and she asked sinyi who confirmed it. haiz....

guitar room was flooded and there was no electricity... our room is leaky! so we had to transfer our schl guitars(including our shiny new niboris...which cost a few thousand a piece). i was like teh only guitarist there...and i overheard someone sliming us...>_<

anyway, in a very weird moment yesterday, i just got out of the guitar room, when kireii walked by the room and she was looking into the room just as i was walking out. that few brief moments i was practically staring into her eyes....which in my opinion was a weird moment. i guess it did nothing to her...but i sorta like froze over for a few minutes...agh...cant get rid of my nervousness and all.

ah yes, cut my wrist by acccident with a mech pencil. it is NOT suicide...pls im professional, if i want to die, i will make sure i will die. but there are things woth living for...

like for kireii...kawaii... guitar... frens like dipak....sliming pple like joel(that perv)

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acceleration

ok, so u can expect the posts to get more frequent as my life stabilizes.

1stly, never expected this, but i think that i may have been xingdonged as xy might call it, by another gal....OMG....wad is wrong with me?

ok, assessment time.

lets' call this new one kawaii(she's quite cute lah). we chatted a few times, and maybe that's why. i somehow find a sort of chemistry when chatting with her(altho i ended up talking in a very singlish manner, which is diff from wad i usually use, maybe cos i was nervous? i dunno. SFC member...im not christian. problem. is she attached? fmaths class too...but if something goes wrong, things will be akward.chance: quite low risk assessment: not worth it


the other the original HER, let's call her kireii...well... no contact at all so i cannot say anything abt it. but from i can se, im not the kind of guy she wants. the only message she sent to me is 'ok, sure'. hm...prob...this one is very uncertain. plus i screwed up teh whole process already. big problem. chance: negligible and by that i mean impossible is an assymptote which can never be achieved. risk assessment: definitely not worth it.

so in short, abort signal has been given. all units are to stop at 2ndary line(frens).

operation hope is aborted. replaced by op:network. and operation: light.
details to be posted next time.

meanwhile, as it rained today, i hoped that teh 2 of them brought umbrellas, or left b4 the rain.

anyway, my fma tutor is so diff from my fmb tutor. today the she asked 'why is teh projector making so much noise?' we were expecting her to slam it. but she din. we all laughed and asked her:'why not slam it?' she said she's afraid of damaging it.

ha! that is so different from my fmb tutor!

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the first proper post

ok, so how has the week been?

1 word

bad.

1st day and i owed homework. din really like my fmb tutor, found her intimidating. today's lecture she siad: 'why is teh projector creating so much noise?'

bam-she slams on the projector, and amazingly it fixes itself!

2nd day i had to complete this fma assignment given to us on day 1...shit...i was too busy completing the hol assignments and i din touch that so i had to do on the spot.

ok, so there was this one pnt in the week where i met her on my way to the toilet. obviously there was no interaction bcos she doesn't reeally noe me. but in any case as we crosssed path, secretly, for that 1 moment, i held my breath. why? i dunno. natural reflex. wad does this mean? i also dunno.

coming home late so often. by day 2 i had to ake a cab home just so that i can get home by 9. haiz. coming home so late these days. so tired.


essentially i had a sian week, so that's abt it.


./finally ended the first post

welcome to the new place

ok, so this is the new place. ironic as i have just moved to a new schl compound. as of now, i am short of time, so i'll be blogging next time.

./end