silent jealousy

Silent jealousy-x japan

I'M LOOKING FOR YOU
TRYING TO REACH YOUR ROSES
CARRIED AWAY BY THE TIME
seijaku no kyouki ni katame wo
tsubusaseta mama
YOU'VE GONE AWAY
FROM THE STAGE LEAVING NO WORDS
THERE'S JUST FAKE TEARS LEFT
isuwari no shinju de kazatta
bara no hanataba wo sagasu
I'M BLIND INSANE
IN THE RED OF SILENCE
NOW I'VE LOST YOUR LOVE
genkaku no ai ni kawareta
ayatsuri ningyo
GET ME ON MY FEET
GET ME BACK TO MYSELF
PRETEND YOU LOVE ME
yubisaki made shinku ni somatta
ore wo mitsumete
moe taekirenai kodoku no SERENADE
kyozou no umi ni nagashite
yume kara sameta chimamire no tenshi wo
mune ni daitemo
I CAN NOT STOP
SILENT JEALOUSY
DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
kanashimi ni midarete
modorenai ai wo kazaru
kurikaesu kodoku no naka ni
TELL ME TRUE doko ni yukeba
kurushimi wo aiseru
I STILL WANT YOU LOVE ai wo tomete
kurui saku kioku wo keshite
I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
when consciousness returned
everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you
but the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
stop my tears
stop my loving
kill my memories
YOU DYED MY HEART IN BLOOD
NO WAY TO KILL MY SADNESS
tachisaru mae ni koroshite
kyouki no ai ni dakareta hitomi wa
nani mo mienai
ima mo I MISS YOU
CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU
SILENT JEALOUSY yume ni ochite
dakishimeru kioku wo
STAY IN YESTERDAY toki wo tomete
kurikaesu kodoku wo keshite
TAKE ME BACK TO THE MEMORY, TO THE DREAM
SILENT JEALOUSY
DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE
kanashimi ni midarete
KILL ME LOVE

haha...was a lil late for rd marchal today
was s'pposed to meet at 645
got there at 650
but we assembled at 655
so i was till early.

anyway, only 5 out of 10 rd marshals came...haha... so we were underhanded.

thot it wold start a bad day. saw sinyi and she told me there was ntu-jc meeting at 710. shit. i have 1st aid. so i smsed wentong.

day would start bad if there's ntu-jc challenge
or so i thot.
on the bus, i saw kawaii. i guessed she was as shocked to see me as i was to see her. greeted each other.she came on board e bus with a guy....thot it was a random stranger so i was going to sit beside her...then he sat down beside her...and started chatting...

wah...so paiseh...so i kept myself occupied by tracking time and counting how long more to being late. once in a while i couldn't help but look in her direction. strange feeling inside me. is this wad is known as jealousy? i dunno. my thots were, dun tell me that's her boyfren? if it is, then i better abort the mission.

left for the pnt without 1st aid kit. wondering why not. then while going to my pnt, mr lam came over in a harley davidson, stopped by the rd and gave us our aid kits.

stationed at a bus stop, with 2 teachers. 1 hr b4 the race starts. i take out my pencil and draw. drawing halfway, mr chan came. told me to collect amps next thurs. sure. back yo drawing...but lead broke...i thot i was out of lead so i was cursing. but later i opened the pen to see taht it was still operational :P back to drawing... teacher commented on my drawing 'ur an artist' they say.asked me fro anme and class. said my class teacher shld get me to decorate classroom with drawings. felt flatteredpple cae running past abt 820. the teachers began cheering for students and other teachers. very confusing. supported all my frens who passed by. not all of them could be seen. maybe they ponned. lots of frens came and passed. and so did kawaii..

got back, returned the 1st aid kit. went to sit with kawaii's class. went there. and after a while went to talk to kawaii....another 0.5 mins conversation. and i asked her whetehr he was her boyfren(in a teasing manner of cos...i still noe how to hide my tracks), she said no. my guess is really a no ba..

went home. noticed kawaii wasn't with her class, who were going for class outing...prob went home liao...qiong to bus stop. dun see her. too late i figure.cos i had to discuss abt ntu jc stuff...haiz. but i guess starting my day with a surprise appearance of kawaai made my day. haha. :P

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