christmas tears

letter to santa:

dear santa,

i want to confess taht i've not been a good boy. i've freaked out one too many pple. i've doen things blindly, without considering the consequences and made a gal go thru hell.i've been a bad boy. but it is at this pnt irrelevant.

even if i were on the nice list, u cant give me wad i want. wad i want...it's simple, yet complicated at teh same time. it is something taht u cannot give, and it is not up to u to give, but it's up to someone else to give. it's not ur call to decide so dun bother. in fact if i should see u flying overhead, i might consider shooting you down with a stinger missile. so$%^& off.

you have been warned

well, if u must give, i'd request a 0.44 colt anaconda with 1 round loaded.
that'll be for myself.

thx u for ur understanding
JAP(johnny austin peters)


anywasy wad i wad most. is for jayce to at least reply me.

that seems impossible at this pnt.

i've already waited 1 week.

i was hoping that that maybe it's bcos she's busy with work so cant reply me, so prob have to wait till weekend. well, guess wad? weekend's over, and still no reply...T_T.

XY said taht there's still soem possibility...for eg if she's overseas.

i highly doubt taht.

i think she's ignoring me. i think she din even bother reading the e mail.

T_T

been having dreams-no-nightmares abt her...

and been crying i secret.

when will this end?

i wish i never felt for her.

and my dad' been using my bed. i cant sleep in any bed now since he took mine. looks like im not gonna sleep today.

./end