spark

few things.
physics s paper was FUN today....was laughing throughout...Mr roland lee was the tutor for today and he was darned funny. i think i've just found that spark i need in physics.

always pose silly scenarios and make fun of victor and anjali.

but din like it when he called me mr wang.(weng)
just like velu...

so irritating!

anyway, so strange...why am i tearing just typing it out?
haha..atashiwa bakadesu...

today jayce was leading morning worship.

she seemed happier today.

and i was happy for her.

does that make any sense to u?

(right now, im crying, but laughing at the same time...are these tears of joy? or am i trying to decieve myself?)

edwin says he admires me for being able to let go. he said it took courage.
but is this really brave? i think it's more like foolish, or am i too critical abt myself?


wadever it is. the situation was beyond my capability to control. so i decided to abandon it. is that brave?

(by now, ive stopped crying)

anyway, 1 thing i learned today abt jayce taht i never knew b4.

*whispers*': she can't sing....

ok. no offense mdm. but really...urm... cannot make it.
but it's quite cute in that sense lah.

one of the SFC guys was like: jayce zhao xia!

me: *chuckles in one corner*

ok. if u are jayce and u are reading this(like duh...how else will u see this?) no offense. dun like come after me tml and give me that icy stare. im already frozen by this cold world...pls dun try to freeze me somemore.

which leads to realise a few things.
1-my sis wouldn't have liked jayce. and would prob give me alot of probs for it.
2-my sis would've complained abt how jayce sounds like(note, my sis hates gals who sound like jayce-and i dun mean singing..i mean talking)
3-urm...i think while it's cute lah...but it still sounds quite bad lah so...
4-our choice of music is like worlds apart.-me jrock...her...urm like...just christian music..but not like christian rock those kind i think so... :P

so it's a gd thing to drop it. it wouldn't have worked out anyways. i mean let's look with teh end in mind shall we?

according to survey, the no. of successful marriages wrt dating time b4 getting married is a normal curve with a sharp peak at 2 years. therefore i take that 2 years is the sweetspot to aim for.

now taht doesn't take into account ns(that is of cos done in us..so there is no ns.

if i start now..the sweetspot happens...when im stilll in ns and she'll still be in uni(i assume she's going uni) which is a BAD time. therefore the whole system is flawed and shld be abolished(which i did)there is no way i could get married in 2 years, and to do otherwise can be a rather risky challenge.

but there are limitations to this survey.
1-doesn't tell us how successful.
2-the definition of success is not given.
3-the no. of relationships after 2 years may be low to start with. therefore even if all of this low amt of pple who date for more than 2 years get married, the number obtained will still be low. therefore we cannot safely say that longer relationship equals less succcessful marriage
4-US context
5-sampling method is not given, therefore, may not be random, hence may not be accurate.
6-level of significance?

therefore this piece of information may not be that accurate. so use this data at ur own risk. understand that a- i did not come up with this data, b- i will not be held responsible for any damages done if u choose to use this set of data.

./end-pain or pleasure? i dunno. nothing is black and white...everything is in a shade of grey.