there is a forbiden word...

i shall declare that the will be one word that is forbiden at least when ur around me.

you should noe wad it is. those who dun dun bother asking. it's for ur good.

anyways. today i finished work early soi went to meiji but it was soo crowded..cant move at all!

so sian..cannot buy anything.

waste my money waste my time.

then went to get the samsung printer fixed.

poor service generally. not gonna talk much abt it.

went to help my sis get green tea and then went to library. borrowed some manga. on the way i think i saw jacqueline...not sure myself. not very close to her anyways so din bother.

saw this lady who kinda reminded me of jayce. i guess that's how she'll grow uo to look like.

anyways. i saw sinyi on the way back. her work ended and was on her way home wheb i saw her. i crept behind her and...BOO!

gave her a scare lolz...

she almost choked on an octopus from old chang kee lolz....

then we talked abt a few things

then she asked me abt my love life..which is zilch...

then she talked abt jayce. abt how she's in schl everyday. as expected she's now a COR mentor.
not that it matters to me....

but these kinda things sure get into my psyche....

just a few days ago XY said she believes that i still have feelings for jayce. u noe wad?

i dunno. im quite sure i got over it. but i cant be sure. not after that strange dream. and random thots i get.

like while bathing i thot abt how as i expected jayce is now a COR mentor and all, how she's helping in Life concert. then i thot of wad would happen if i were with her.

valentine's day she will be at SAJC helping with Life concert. if i were with her, i would undoubtedly be there too. and even tho it would be an unconventional valentine's day but i would be happy just to be with her. didn't matter wad we were doing. since they'll be late...i'll prob make a bento of sorts for her. and we can eat together...eating under the starlight...it will be romantic in a different way. and then i realised. why do i even think abt this? i dun even love her anyways. all the things pple keep talking abt jayce to me...it's getting to my psyche. darn it.

angry.

they say there is a fine line between hatred and love. maybe there is. ok. i DUN hate jayce per se. i just kinda have this natural repulsion force to her these days. it's like..im jayce phobic or something...if there's such a thing.

anyways she's complaing that she wished to see more of OJ. but that's not how it's turning out for sinyi...hahz.

all i can say is, in life, not everything goes the way u plan it to be.



./end...angry